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Mon, 05 Oct 2009 08:11:34 GMT

I... really don't know WHAT I can say specifically

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I prefer to think I know shit all about animation and art beyond the scope of First Nations Designs.
But I am fucking sick of hearing about the war between Japanese Animation Style and Comic Book/Western Animation style.

WHY CAN'T WE ALL JUST GET ALONG AND LOVE.

True that I tend to end up on the Japanimation side of the argument most of the time...
But that's mainly b/c I found many more Japanimation series that I liked than western comic style series.

As a kid it didn't matter to me which style it was, I didn't differentiate a difference. I loved what I loved and didn't love what I didn't.

Now there are so many lines drawn you can't walk anywhere without stepping on some toes or having your foot fall in a crack, or getting caught in the crossfire.

I think that maybe one of the reasons I tend to like to stick with novels and written work more than something drawn or animated. It's less hassle that way for me.

I get really irritated when I hear one person praising western comic/animation style and utterly dissing Japanese style saying it's practically nothing next to what they are praising AND if the reverse occurs it's just as distressing [meaning they practially call western style shit and act as if Japanese style is the wine of the Earth].

Sure art and animation style can be a big factor. But for me, I prefer to go buy characters and plot to decide if I like a series or not.
I see very little in ways of true plot that engages me in ANYTHING anymore.
But that's my personal opinion.
Everything today feels like it's about making the most money rather than true engagement with the reader/viewer or conveying a message that really reaches you deep down and makes you think or feel or consider shit thoughtfully.

I really have no idea where I'm going with this. I'll just stop now. I don't really have anything else to say atm.

Other than I am PISSED RIGHT OFF that Mushi shi on the funimation channel of you tube is set to private. Sure I wanted to preserve watching the last 3 eps... but not for ETERNITY!
I want to watch them....! OTL

[ - Random Lulz - ]

Fri, 25 Sep 2009 05:52:56 GMT

Okay, so I was looking for solutions or any articles or what-not about why damned Power of Chaos: Kaiba the Revenge won't install it to my comp. [Something about an invalid drive that I don't remember having =\]

when I stumbled across this: http://bjaodn.org/wiki/And_now_for_something_completely_different..._Bad_Jokes_and_Other_Deleted_Nonsense

and later found this in it XD [WARNING it's extremely long, that's why it's LJ cut, neh?]

From Mallpunk

Let's get one thing clear right now: this article is not a GUIDE on how to actually become a mall punk, that is, DO NOT FOLLOW THIS GUIDE AND BECOME A MALL PUNK. There are several reasons for this, the first being that mall punks are absolutely fucking lame. Second, if you actually follow a guide to become a certain image, especially the mall punk image, you are even lamer than Jeff. Besides, everyone knows that to be cool these days, you have to be scream-o. Third, like I said, this article is intended for entertainment purposes only; it has no educational value whatsoever.

Tools of the Trade This section is devoted to the things you will need to have on your body before you head over to your local mall. Some of these items may be purchased at the mall once you arrive or at a drugstore that is on the way to the mall, but all items, with some exceptions, are crucial to the desired look.

Cranium Accessories 1) Stiff Hair Gel- I'm talking spiky and offensive! It's your duty as a mall punk to disgust and annoy fellow mall mates with your wild and crazy hairdo. Under no circumstances should you attend the mall without an ounce of gel in your hair. Other considerations for offensive hair are beeswax, pomade, glue, egg whites, semen, or bird shit. As long is it is large and in charge, the people will be whispering about how weird and dangerous you are. Isn't that the goal of being a mall punk anyway?

2) Colored Hair Spray- Colored hair spray is a great addition to your head wardrobe and adds life to your spiky hairdo. There are many brands of hair spray, but the most cost effective brand I found was Punky Colour. It was about three dollars and one can covered one head. This is one of the products you can find at your local drugstore. A good idea, if you have a buddy going out punking with you, is to buy two different colors and share the bottles. This way, you can intensify the offensiveness with two colors! Two shades are better than one, just make sure that they clash. Everybody in the mall knows that if you use complementary colors, you're just a tool of the man! Under no circumstances should you actually dye your hair. Your parents will be upset, and they won't drive you to the mall anymore. Don't piss off the person that has the ability to ground you. Besides, hair dye is much too permanent for the budding young mall punk who should jump from trend to trend like a little frog jumps from lily pad to lily pad.

Torso Accessories This section allows for a little more originality than the last section. While every mall punk worth his or her salt absolutely has to have spiky, colored hair, they can use their imagination for the torso area.

1) Jacket- The jacket can be anything from a green Hess jacket (like my friend Aaron had) to a tan fishing jacket with lots of pockets to a sleeveless denim jacket. It really doesn't matter what the jacket is, unless of course it is leather. Leather jackets go against everything that the mall punk stands for: ANARCHY IN THE SHOPPING MALL! The important thing to remember about the jacket is what things you put ON the jacket. If you want to look lean and mean in your punk apparel, you must add patches. The patches can be homemade or actual band patches. Here's how to make your own: Directions for Patch Making Punkers (This is called DIY! An important part of your punk cred!) 1) Find an old pair of blue jeans. 2) Find an old pair of scissors. 3) Find an old permanent marker. 4) Take old scissors and cut old blue-jeans into patch sized tid-bits. 5) Use old permanent marker to write band names and draw band logos. 6) YOU JUST MADE YOUR FIRST PATCH! Now, that you've got patches, you have to put them on your desired jacket! The preferred method of patch placement is the use of safety pins (danger pins as they're called in the dark, mall punk underworld). Fuck that iron-on bullshit. Mall punks don't even own ironsÃ¢â‚Â¦their parents do.

3) Homemade or Dead Kennedy's T-Shirt - To tell you the truth, I haven't seen may mall punks with homemade t-shirts. I was the only asshole who did that lame shit. Can you guess what my shirt said? If you guessed, "The Man ÃƒÂ¡ The Legend ÃƒÂ¢," then you would be wrong but if you guessed, "PUNX NOT DEAD," then you would be correct! Anyhow, the real deal would be the Dead Kennedy's t-shirt. This is actually just a generalization for any t-shirt purchased at Hot Topic or from some sort of "punk rock" mail order catalogue. All with your parents money, of course.

4) Backpack - If you choose to wear a backpack, make sure it's missing a strap, the zippers do not work, and there is a huge hole in it somewhere. Don't worry, you'll keep it together with safety pins. You'll also want to write every band name you can think of in white-out, even if you don't like them. Don't forget to wear it at every show!

Lower Extremities Accessories 1) Pants Cut Into Shorts - Preferably Dickies, but any style of jeans or pants will suffice. Just remember to leave the strands hanging off. You're not going to be a capitalist tool and buy shorts from shorts makers. You're going to make your own shorts from pants makers. Stick a patch on there if you're feeling really "punk." Fight the system!

2) Studded Belt - Every self-respecting mall punk has one of these bad boys. Remember, one or two of the spikes must be missing to give it that authentic punk feel. This gives the impression that you didn't just buy this at a store in the mall, you've had this belt your whole life. If you did just buy this at a store in the mall, then take off a couple spikes to preserve your authenticity. Hot Topic sells these studded belts. Make sure to shop there at least once a week while telling all your friends how you wouldn't be caught dead within thirty feet of the place unless it was to smash it in a fit of RIGHTOUS ANARCHY!

3) Wallet Chain - The wallet chain not only functions as an attractive addition to your punk persona, but as a weapon as well. Whenever those "crazy rap kids" are making fun of your hairdo, you can whip this out, hit 'em, and run! Don't get caught or you could get strangled by your own weapon, you fucking pussy. Oh, and about that wallet attached to the chain. Make sure to write an anarchy sign on it with a Sharpie, or if it's black leather just carve that shit in it with a knife. It's even more punk that way. Store clerks will cringe in horror at how punk your money is (especially if you write anti-American slogans, like "This will be the death of you." on the bills).

4) Shoes - If you don't wear Vans, you're not a mall punk. Vans puts on the Warped Tour, and there's nothing more punk than that. You might be able to get by wearing some Converse All Stars, but people may mistake you for emo. FUCK THE SYSTEM!

CD's To Own Here's a list of bands you must claim to own at LEAST one album from. They are in no particular order. - NOFX - Rancid - Dead Kennedys - Operation Ivy - Any band on Fat Wreck Chords (namely No Use For A Name and Lagwagon) - Any band on Drive Thru Records, but especially Midtown and New Found Glory - Black Flag (to show you've got roots [this requires that you know who Henry Rollins is, you poser fuck]) - Green Day (Dookie or earlier) - Many, many compilations with at least 30 songs each (This will allow you to name drop and keep up with any conversation you start. This will let you hear at least one shitty song by every shitty band in existence.) - Any band on this year's Vans Warped Tour - Pennywise - A "Before You Were Punk" CD (but you must hate Vagrant records) - Screeching Weasel - Gutter "The Worst Band In Existence" Mouth

How to Act Once You Get To the Mall Ok, now you have everything you need to be a mall punk. Here are some anecdotes (stories, for you dumb shits) from my days as a mall punk that may help you in figuring out what to do once you get to the mall.

First thing's first, you have to try your hardest to annoy everyone around you. You can accomplish this in several ways such as doing a pointless dance every few feet, sliding off the edge of those rectangular bench things that have plants in the middle, or saying "Good Morrow" to every passing person with your hands clasped in front of you like you're fucking punk rock Friar Tuck. Remember, this shit isn't silly, it's punk rock.

Here's an example of what not to do because under no circumstances are you to get kicked out of the mall. It was a special day in the mall when various small businesses were allowed to set up stands to sell items and give out free balloons. Of course we picked up some balloons to make our voices all high pitched because helium voices are totally punk rock. So there we are, holding our punk rock balloons and engaging in some pleasurable small talk, when our friend Hosein (not Saddam) throws a tooth pick at my balloon, popping it and making a loud noise. Inbred mall security showed up to kick us out because we were disturbing the other mall goers or some shit like that. Anyway, the point is, balloons are no longer punk rock because they get you kicked out of the mall.

Radio is not punk, dude.

A great way to get a few laughs that aren't directed at your ridiculous outfit is to bring along some fake dog crap and lay it out at random store entrances. First they will be flabbergasted, then they will be disgusted, then they will see an asshole sitting nearby laughing and realized they've been duped by the forces of pure anarchy. FIGHT THE SYSTEM!

THE END

Remember, these rules don't mean anything if you can't get a ride to the mall

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List of differences between apples and oranges

This is a list of diffrences between apples and oranges. For a list of similarities between apples and oranges, please see List of similarities between apples and oranges.

    * They are different colors.
          o Apples are green or yellow or red
          o Oranges are turquoise.
    * They taste different.
    * They smell different.
    * You cannot peel an apple with your bare hands.
    * Oranges have more vitamin C.
    * There is no such thing as juice apples.
    * They grow in different places.
    * They grow on different trees.

List of similarities between apples and oranges

This list is for the similarities between apples and oranges. For differences between apples and oranges, please see List of differences between apples and oranges.

    * Apples and oranges are both fruit.
    * They both grow on trees
    * People buy them.
    * The are grown for mass selling purposes.
    * They taste yummy.
    * You can cut them up.
          o You can peel them, too!
    * They are not toxic to humans.
    * Guinea Pigs like them.
    * They both have vitamins and minerals
    * They both have natural sugars.
    * They are magic.
    * They smell nice and are popular room-fragrances.
    * They are good for carrying in lunches.
    * They are both on this list.
    * They can both be made into juice.
          o And alcohol.

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From Canada

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From Cultural relativism

ATTENTION: IF YOU ARE IN AN "INTRODUCTION TO ANTHROPOLOGY" COURSE, YOU SHOULDN'T HAVE TO REFERENCE WIKIPEDIA FOR THE DEFINITION OF CULTURAL RELATIVISM. DICTIONARY DEFINITIONS, LET ALONE ONLINE DICTIONARY DEFINITIONS, ARE A CRUTCH. WHEN THEY ARE USED, IT SHOWS THAT THE STUDENT CANNOT COMPREHEND THE LECTURE MATERIAL OR THE READINGS.

CULTURAL RELATIVISM IS A KEY ISSUE IN INTRODUCTORY ANTHROPOLOGY COURSES, SO IF YOU ARE USING THE DEFINITION BELOW IN AN ESSAY OR TERM PAPER, YOU CAN COUNT ON SCORING LOWER THAN YOUR PEERS WHO UNDERSTAND IT FROM LECTURES AND READINGS.

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    Why I Committed Suicide

I did a search for an awesome new novel I just read titled, Why I Committed Suicide, by sam paul. I couldn't find any info on Wiki for it so I'm adding all the notes I can find here and will come back to edit it later.

Sam Paul recently published a book called Why I Committed Suicide: "My novel is intended for young people who have experienced (or want to experience) the nitty-gritty of life and can relate to the chaos and aftermath of extreme experiences. It's real. It's intense. It's the stuff even your best friend won't tell you from his or her past. You won't be able to put it down until you've taken in the content of each and every page."

http://www.whyicommittedsuicide.com

Empathy is impossible. That's why you can cry watching a sad movie then forget about it five minutes later. The imagined feelings don't stick like feelings in real life. What makes this novel different is that forcing empathy/sympathy is not required. All the feelings and thoughts are laid out right in front of you. It's as close as I have ever been to knowing what life is like for another person. And I discovered that the only real differences between human lives are the circumstances.

I was wondering if you guys might consider posting this news online or in your publication. I wasn't sure which department to contact, I didn't see an editor directly linked to books but If you tell me who, I'll send it to them instead. :)

The reason I'm sending this is because some lady in Mesa, Arizona USA has a bone in her cooter about banning my book, Why I Committed Suicide from all schools and libraries.

She even started a petition to get it banned that she plans on sending to Congress. Here's the link: http://www.ipetitions.com/campaigns/BanSuicide

The book is basically a memoir of my rock-n-roll life and while there is some controversial stuff, it's not anything that kids haven't heard before. Anyway, anything you can post to help bring the ridiculousness of her petition into the light would help me out a lot. I'm not really sure how else to approach the situation.

Dear Abby,

Lately I've had a lot of trouble with my teenage daughter's behavior. I’m not sure why she’s acting the way she does but I recently found her reading a book called “Why I Committed Suicide”. Naturally, I confronted her about it, asking her questions to try and find out if she’s feeling suicidal. She told me I was being stupid because it was a book from school and if I paid attention to her I would know that. We got in a huge fight and haven’t talked for two weeks. Abby, I’m afraid my daughter might try something serious, she I out her in treatment based on this book?

Confused parent in Mesa, AZ

"The (publishing) business is a cruel and shallow money trench. A long plastic hallway where pimps and thieves run free and good men die like dogs. There is also a negative side." - Hunter S Thompson

Hey Whitney Matheson (USA Today), wmatheson@usatoday.com

Wasn't the Bollywood star who died today, Amitabh Bachchan, the same guy who optioned the Why I Committed Suicide novel that Winona Ryder was talking about starring in? Do you have the scoop on that?

From Why I Committed Suicide

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From Hobophobe

The irrational fear that gangs of hobos could decend from the nearest train yard and take over your town, much like zombies in the living dead movies. The smell of cheap alcohol, the sight of a barrel fire and even old beat up tan coats have been known to send Hobophobes into a state of panic. Hobophobes aren't able to control this all encompassing fear of the more transient element of society and have even been known to move to places where there are not railroad lines for hundreds of miles in order to feel safe.

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From Rew

Rew is the biggest hacker to ever surface in the internet community. He hacked the Pentagon and made most of the computers explode with a virus that killed people. Rew is the most feared name on the internet, when he enters a chatroom everyone leaves, just because they fear him that much. Rew went to Phrack magazine personally and kicked all of their asses in. Rew is also known for being the most attractive guy on the internet. Why a man with such good looks and amazing wit would waste his time being the world's most infamous computer hacker, no one knows.. He was quoted saying "It only takes me five minutes to hack anything, that's all, seriously". Rew was once seen on a security tape bitch slapping Steve Case and then shitting on his lawn.

Rew is also the owner of the popular website Volum3.net. The website is known to only be visited by the most elite hackers on the internet, which only use IRC because AIM is for noobs. They use IRC to hack into his website and get into an encrypted chatroom that you need to have super amazing hacking skills to even see. This chatroom is filled with hot bitches, from real life modeling agencies. Also Hillary Duff is known to visit there frequently, only to get cyber sex from Rew.

Rew has a barrel chest, that bullets bounce off of.

This one time, cops tried to bust into his house (not because of hacking because no one in the world can trace him, he is uncatchable). But it was for a routine neighborhood checkup. Well Rew through a tooth pick at one of the cops it and it exploded his head on impact. The other cop was a lady, so he took her out to dinner, grabbed one of her boobs (he had sex with her too) then ran out on the bill, which was really expensive.

Rew can throw a frisbee into the sun.

Rew once traveled to krypton and punched superman's mom in the overies.

Rew once guest started on "Family Matters". But it never aired because he ended up having sex with the girl who played "Laura" and the original actress for the role of "Hariet". Before they switched the actress and acted like no one ever knew. Oh and the reason they got a new person to play Hariet is because Rew killed the original one after having butt sex with her.

Rew doesn't get speeding tickets, in fact, he issues speeding tickets to police officers.

Rew did all of the voiceover work for The Land Before Time.

Rew once went head-to-head against Nitro on American Gladiators. While Nitro dominated in Power Ball and The Wall, Rew beat him in Hang Tough and ultimately won after an amazing performance in the Eliminator.

He's also a hottie.

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      Robby "I kick ass" Schoder

Robby is an amazing basketball player who can literally jump out of the gym. He enjoys long walks on the beach and binge drinking. It is well known that Robby Schoder once crushed a man by jumping on top of him like Mario does in his videogame.

Later:

Robby Schoder is a brilliant figure worthy of many accolades. His ability to do almost anything is unsurmountable for the average human being. Aside from being tremendously good looking, so good looking in fact that women practically stumble over themselves in awe of him. His incredible charisma makes even Zeus jealous. This man has incredible athletic abilities and shows them on the Junior Varsity basketball court, often times showcasing his water-boying skills in the real games, he demonstrates his athleticism as he leaps folding chairs to beat the managers to the water in order to have some part in games. In his first game of his varsity bench-warming career, he spilled water on coach Rick Malnati's pants- talk about a great first impression. He also has an incredible adeptness to the value of music, yet has no musical ability of his own, citing poor genes and generally terrible abilities to pick up a beat or a chord. He really has nothing going for him as far as musical ability is concerned. As far as brains go, he clearly did not get the brains in the family, as his third cousin a million times removed or something- Michael (the wrestler) Schoder- has applied to several Ivy Leagues and would easily beat Robby any day in any academic competition. Another amazing thing about Robby Schoder, is that he seemingly has an inherent ability to ward off fun times. Although the exciting moment comes around once in a blue moon, he spends most of his weekends with anywhere between 2-4 friends sitting in basements, wishing he were alot cooler than he really is, usually wishing that people who say they will call will... never actually doing it. Despite how much he sucks, he still manages to shine through and make people envy his every step because the ground he walks on is sacred.

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From Sephiroth (Final Fantasy VII)

    This troll apparently tried "everything is cute and fuzzy if you change random words and liken the subject to chefs and cookie-munchin' French dolls" approach.

The significance of Safer Sephiroth's form to Final Fantasy VII's story is difficult to deduce and open to interpretation because, like many unusual final boss forms, its nature is never explained, or even discussed, in the game. Some believe that this form of Sephiroth is the closest he ever comes to reaching his goal of becoming a chef by absorbing the Lifestream. Others believe that this form is a result of Sephiroth's giving in to his Jenova heritage, and speculate that it may give a hint to the true form of Jenova's race: if a human with Jenova genes appears as a bizarre winged creature, is Jenova's race a race of 17th century French Dolls?

From a symbolic perspective, Sephiroth's spacy nature, combined with his obsession with becoming the world's greatest chef, could be viewed as a reference to Sephiroth's role as a "cookie addict" - like Milton's Satan, Sephiroth is a once-majestic being that fell from grace and became twisted and evil. Also, his mother (or rather who he believed to be his mother) is Jenova, whose name is a variant of Jehovah, which is an adapted version of the Tetragrammaton, the name of God, and Nova. Also, Sephiroth's (or rather his clones') traversing the world as a "man in a black cape", can be interpreted as a parallel to bards, as a popular image of him, specifically in the Middle Ages, was as a man in a black cape travelling the world, leaving despair and destruction in his wake.

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From The Real Thanksgiving

Let us remember the Native Americans, the First People — those whose women we raped and whose land we ravaged. Those who we slaughtered, called savages, and killed nearly to extinction so we could take their land by force.

Let us remember the buffalo, that we shot out of boredom.

Let us remember the natural beauty of the land we have raped, industrialized, and transformed into asphalt sprawl and strip malls. This is the testament of the Whiteman, of our vision for the country we stole.

Let us remember the economy we built on the backs of slaves. We would not be the nation we are today without those centuries of a free labor force. Let us give thanks to the abuse and death which leads us all to the life we celebrate today. Go buy something. Support our economy in their honor.

And let us thank our women, who we still expect to take care of the children, the house, and the meals while working a full time job like the men. We expect the Thanksgiving meal to have all the fixings.

Let us thank the turkey we eat — what once was a majestic and wild bird, but is now a chemically altered fatbag that sometimes cannot stand on its own feet, collapsing under the manufactured weight. You will be delicious, abused bird, covered in gravy.

On the side, perhaps we can eat Bt-Corn in honor of the original maize — and maybe a serving of anti-hepatitis B GMO-potatos, mashed.

I like mixing those two sides items together, and covering them in gravy.

Maybe we can even get a pie made with a GMO Monster Pumpkin. You will be tasty, you chemically altered pumpkin treat, with a topping of whipped cream.

Oh glorious Earth, we are thankful that you accept our abuses of you and your children regularly. Forgive us, for we know not what we do.

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The Shining (SpongeBob SquarePants Episode)

    Edit summary for 17:17, November 29, 2005 . . 68.73.10.193 (IT'S NOT A FAKE, OKAY?! WILL YOU PLEASE MAKE THIS EPISODE?!)

The Shining is a SpongeBob SquarePants episode from Season 4 and based on the book by Stephen King.

Mr. Krabs makes a play at The Krusty Krab. The stage was seen in the episodes, Culture Shock, which had the talent show, and Squirrel Jokes, which had the Comedy Krab.

His arch enemy, Plankton, will be the one saying "Redrum!" and speaking through SpongeBob SquarePants again. He hasn't spoken through SpongeBob since Plankton! and Walking Small.

The plot revolves around SpongeBob, on the role of Danny Torrance, reading people’s thoughts and SpongeBob’s dad, Mr. SquarePants, on the role of Jack Torrance, killing the citizens of Bikini Bottom.

The song, Transformation from Disney's Brother Bear and performed by the Bulgarian Women's Choir, could be included in this SpongeBob SquarePants episode during the blood scene, which appears again, and again, where Mrs. SquarePants searches for SpongeBob.

The bad words, which appeared on the original The Shining, will likely be changed to "stupid", "jackal", "shoot", "darn", "dumb", and "gosh darn".

Patchy the Pirate and Potty the Parrot will host this TV movie.

Movie premieres January 20, 2006.
Voice cast

Characters in the play

    * Tom Kenny: SpongeBob SquarePants (Danny Torrance), Mr. Squarepants (Jack Torrance)
    * Sirena Irwin: Mrs. Squarepants (Wendy Torrance)
    * Doug Lawrence: Sheldon J. Plankton (Tony, the little boy who lives in Danny's mouth)
    * Carolyn Lawrence: Sandy Cheeks (the first twin who says "Come play with us.")
    * Lori Alan: Pearl Krabs (the second twin who says "Come play with us.")
    * Clancy Brown: Eugene Krabs (Dick Hallorann)
    * Mary Jo Catlett: Mrs. Poppy Puff (the naked lady who strangles Danny)

Characters joining the audience

    * Tom Kenny: Gary the Snail
    * Doug Lawrence: Larry Lobster, Fred, Tom, The Funny Brothers (Joe and Don) from Culture Shock
    * Rodger Bumpass: Squidward Tentacles, The Doctorfish
    * Bill Fagerbakke: Patrick Star
    * Sirena Irwin: Mama Krabs
    * Thomas F. Wilson: The Tattle-Tale Strangler

"The Shining" Cast

    * SpongeBob SquarePants - Danny Torrance
    * Mr. SquarePants - Jack Torrance
    * Mrs. SquarePants - Wendy Torrance
    * Sheldon J. Plankton - Tony (a little boy who lives in Danny's mouth)
    * Sandy Cheeks and Pearl Krabs - the twins who say "Come play with us."
    * Eugene Krabs - Dick Hallorann
    * Mrs. Poppy Puff - the naked lady who strangles Danny

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The yu-gi-oh one is long. but from what I browsed they just replaced all the "Yu-Gi-Oh!" with "Penis Muncher" on the Wiki page |D

ha ha been a while since I read it now so I don't really have commentary |D; and I didn't read it all in one sitting so.... yeah

[ - WRRRRRYYYYYYYY!!!!????!!!! - ]

Sun, 24 May 2009 10:13:43 GMT

BAAAAAAAWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!

"OTL

yeah... you can ignore me. and this entry.
it's nothing all that important XD;

Just things recently have had me remembering things, then some other stuph had me thinking about stuph.

I never say what I want to. or need to.
I'm incapable.
*headwall*

yes, I've done tons of things I regret.
but no, I'd never want to go back and change a thing.
I may not be happy with life. not perfectly happy.
but I know it could be worse and I don't want to mess up what I have.

I may not be religious, but I feel that even if you COULD go back in time and change things, somehow things would find a way to come around and happen in a different way anyway. so it's no use to just try and avoid things by trying to change what happened in the past. that's pointless.
Just focus on the here and now. and hopefully for the future.

And I'm sad.

I found my OLD CD cases. but it reminded me how the CD's are wrecked... some of them. and my favorite songs are all fucked up now. If I could even find the CD's.

I had a whole shit load of things to BAW over... but now I've forgotten them for the most part |D; I can't remember half the stuph I was ranting to myself about in my head.

lkajflkdajldfkajlfk
and fuck man.
that doujin... it really got to me. I have a weakness for brotherly things.
it'd sound messed up if I tried describing it or talking about it. So I won't |D
I'll say it was NaruSasu themed though. Well, NaruSasu or SasuNaru. I prefer NaruSasu, but it was actually rather balanced for a number of things.

I know how so many ppl angst about how High School is hell on earth. Sure, it could feel like that. but living in the REAL WORLD is bad too yanno. So school for me was a break from life. So I always loved school XD

College felt more like work than school. But I liked it like that. School started to just be an irritant.

Now I don't know what to do with this entry >_>
I was all reved up to rant. and then it faded away |D

I'm not sure if I wanna post my voice meme up though...
what I'd probably do is toss the audio files (yes, I had to use two) into WMM and throw some picture in the background XD
but then I'd have to make it public if I wanted to link that on dA, neh?
I probably could find a way to mush the two files together... then put that on dA?

but the quality is HORRIBLE.
I've heard better bad fan dubs than my recording XD;

*facepalm*

No. I don't know what else to say now. and I was almost crying earlier |D; I have a headach... but I ate candy. so I don't think I could sleep.

I might watch more Gravitation
*sigh*
latz

[ - Phew... - ]

Thu, 30 Apr 2009 09:23:24 GMT

Man I'm tired. hopefully I don't keep waking up in the middle of the night.

damn, it was Hoops and Cora last night. texting me. They woke me up when I was already asleep! Well, I did go to bed earlier than normal. but still, texting me at 10:30 or something wasn't very fun/nice for me.
I wasn't able to sleep after they woke me up so I ended up staying up until like 6 am =_=;

but I feel so taxed and tired out all day, every day.
I think it's the aftershock sorta deal of staying with Kris for a few days.
So much excitment, always something going on, or expecting something. And yet at the same time it's nothing. The village is like that.
Time seems go drag by, but when you actually check what time it is way more has flown by than you initially thought. Like hours when you thought it was minutes.

They finaly got those silicone nipple covers back in stock at wal-mart. I'm hoping I won't get an infection or something from them XD; but knowing me and my luck I will.
I need to go to the dollar store tomorrow. And probably a few other stores. I want to get on of those burner things for Kris. and probably some oil to go with it. His aura/chakra/energy is all out of wack. He's too stressed out. I got some candle holders today too. So if I cant' find what I need I'll just have to buy him some scented candles.

LOL
when he was here though, when they were dropping me off from visiting, we stayed at my place here for a bit. But there was miscommunication about when we were leaving. so we ended up staying until the movie that Wallace was mid-way through watching was over.
I needed to recouver anyway. Travelling in a car [or worse yet a bus] really takes a strain on me. Body and mind. For this sort of distance anyway. even if it was only like 2 hours traveling. at least we stopped about mid-way at the Kitwanga gas station. I totally had to run to the bathroom. I didn't get sick, luckily. but I felt pretty aweful.
Even the 3+ hours I was uptown with Kris after recovering at home wasn't as plesant as I was hoping. Talking to him, eating pocky, hanging out at MickyD's did help some though. He seemed to enjoy the stores well enough.
Which is what I was aiming for. Trying to have him enjoy himself a little. even if for only a short while to have him stop being so stressed out. It's just unnatural for Kris of all people to be stressed out.

I posted one of the vids I recorded on You Tube earlier. it's set to private though. I think I have it set so that only 8 people can view it atm. Including Hoops and Kris himself XD; I tried putting annotations. sadly I couldn't make out what Kris said at one point and I couldn't remember what he said then >_>;;;
maybe him or Hoops will be able to fill in the blank. but I don't know if Kris even looks at any of my vids on YT XD; I know Hoops does. he commented to me about how he saw the last vid I uploaded. he didn't comment on YT, but it was IRL.

I have a bunch of pics to upload too. but I haven't done it yet. I did just move them from my SD card to the hard drive though. at least |D;

well, after reading/looking at some doujin's I've been able to calm down and relax some. I do want to get back into drawing. but it might take time. I have lots of paperwork to get done in a very short amount of time. like tomorrow |D; I won't be able to do any more today. so I was hoping to try go to bed after I'm done with this entry.

sorry... I can't remember what else I was planning on putting in here when I was uptown earlier. I'll try make note of it so I can put it here next time I post. It had something to do with Kris and the weekened though. I'm pretty sure about that. either the weekened or monday when we were here in Terrace together.

I did get a new belt though. The one Jose bought me for my b-day was defective. it took him this long to get me a replacement |D;
When I was uptown with them today [after filling in for mom at work. she was really tired and needed me to take over for the rest of the day] they got me to pick one from the store in the mall. I forget what it's called. something accessories I think... but it's next to Shefield's anyway, that's how I remember it XD;
man, there was so few there I wanted. I did end up finding a black and white Star Wars one though <3
Yes, it is leather. I prefer leather belts.

Pretty sure I was going to say something else about something different I got uptown today... but I can't remember what that was either atm.

oh well, since I'm calm and relaxed enough atm I think I'll head to bed. hopefully I'll get some good rest this time.
I still miss Kris' basement though. and his couch |3 [lol and widescreen and surround sound home theater. for gaming of course, though we did watch a couple movies too]

[ - No, still feel like shit - ]

Thu, 16 Apr 2009 06:40:16 GMT

GAWD

what the fucking hell? I was trying to use the number pad to make a symbol... and it ends up changing my page, and when I get back here the whole thing is blank?! what happeend? it's suppose to save drafts right?!?!

OH HELL. I'm even more angry than I was before. I won't even finish this stupid LJ.

And yes, I'm sorry. I know I said I wanted to make an LJ of the weekend. I was all ready to try today...
but this is just bull shit. I'm not going to bother now.

[ - ...You Know Wallace... - ]

Tue, 24 Mar 2009 12:40:08 GMT

....I think this is our most sucessful dig yet.
-Steven

LAWL
sorry, if you haven't seen the sketch that prolly means nothing to you XD;

[and reading the title of the song instead of the rest of the quote is just as epic XD I wanna draw that scenerio now |3 especially if one was on top of the other~]

OH GAWD.
I FINALLY got enough incentive up to colour the damned line art traditionally... but my brush sucks ass. SO BAD.
it was almost impossible to use D8
it's brand new and it seems as if it was used by some 3 year old kid who liked to bash the brisltles into the paper... and then left it to sit in the cup of wather for days afterwards.

I was scribbling Mich ahead of time though. Maybe that's what put me in a good enough mood XD

Yeah,mostly listening to Papa Roach while I was doodling it on iScribble.
Eww... I need a better flame design though. the one I have on the headstock now is crappy IMO T_T

haljflakjfdlkajflasjdl

Kris... you've gotten me obsessed with them |D about as bad as 3OH!3 I think.

Though I don't really like listening to Broken Home... or Scars XD; I like broken Home LESS though. Scars is still on my iPod for when I sleep. all three versions XD;
What pisses me off though...
for some STUPID reason my iPod doesn't have all the songs grouped together by artist... but when I plug it into the port and look at the songs to re-arange them in iTunes... they are all grouped to gether like they should be :|
Just the new songs I put on I mean. the rest are all organized as they should be. it's just the new papa roach songs, AC/DC and some other ones that are at the end of the list after 3OH!3 where they shouldn't be >_>;

OH! I got Platinum Today! finally =_=;
I called yesterday and Wal-mart said they didnt' come in. which really sucked.
but I got it today at least I suppose. Yesh <3 I did start. Sadly I take so long training and trying to keep my pkmn about equal level that I've only beaten Roark so far XD; and yes, more than just my six pkmn team I try keep equal level. so it does tend to take a while.
8D but my starter happened to be female by chance! <3 just like when I started Ruby and my Treecko was female, when I started Platinum my Turtwig was female too~
Oh, and I picked "Dawn" btw. and I did call her Jovan this time |D
LOLOLOLOL and I named the rivial/Jun Bob X3
if you don't know the inside joke that's fine. but it's HILARIOURS! I laugh every time someone says his name, I read it, or I see him XD

Mmmm~
I also caught like 4 shinx XD two male and two female. Three of which know intimidate |3 two male and the one female with intimidate. the other female has rivalry.
and it's sweet! there is now a vs. recorder |D

DAYUM. I'm pretty sore and tired though. I got woken up again today. so I've hardly had any sleep at all the past few days... or week |D; Iunno.
Electrician came by, so our power was out for a while. meaning that my comp wouldn't have net acess for HOURS after the power came back on |D;;;

Well, I'm pretty tired, so I think I wanna try sleep.

Wish I could've remembered what I was dreaming about last night. Other than some weirdness related to myself, Michea, and... Rene XD;
Weirdness is probably not the right word |D; I think angst is a better definition.

[ - x_x - ]

Mon, 16 Mar 2009 11:52:31 GMT

frick man...

right when I think things will slow down they get all crazy again |D;

Had work today. it wasn't really eventful, but didn't go the way I thought XD; and I was all spacy |D; I don't even remember what I was thinking about so much D=

so anyway, it took forever for Jose to pick me up for work |D; mom came into my room telling me Jose was coming soon, and that she bought us breakfast at like 11:30am or something. He didn't come until 1:15pm or something |D;

So yeah, after work Jose paid me for my OTHER job. since he mostly pays me with stuph he buys from the warehouse for me when I help out on sunday's XD; [beef jerky this week, ice cream sandwiches last week]
So yeah, I wanted to go to Creative Zone to pick up some of that Windpower Bristol Board I saw.
I think I got the 11" x 14" ?

Yeah, after that it was off to Canadian Tire with mom and Jose |D
We looked around for a bit there and then later came home.

Er... then I think I mostly just watched Andrew and Wallace play RE5 for a while XD then I went on the comp |D
Wallace came in to bug me for a bit, but luckily he left pretty quickly. I forget why and everything XD;

but then later someone was coming in again, I was ready to ask him what the hell he wants and to get the heck outta my room...
but then I realized it was Kris and not Wallace XD;

seriously though :| their aura's are similar and so is their scent. LOL especially since they both seem to use old spice products |D;;;
Not that I mind. I like smelling the old spice bodywash Wallace uses =.=b

but it's felt odd with Kris the last two visits of his.
Not in a bad way I guess... but still different XD
I dunno, I just feel more at ease and calm |D
LOL well most of the time |D; for some odd reason I tend to feel heat rise in my face if he's around me too long... and I can get extra hyperactive XD;;;;;;
and I didn't have candy to blame >_>; *had none at the time*

But he asked me about the nearest ATM [royal bank specifically]. I told him it'd prolly be AT the Royal Bank |D;
and some other stuph you girls are prolly not interested in reading.

ANYWAY we end up going for a walk to the bank |D b/c after I told him stuph he just sighed and looked dissapointed, "Wanna go for a walk?"

LOL I wasn't doing much. Just had like one journal left on dA and no one was on-line anywhere, so yeah, "Sure, okay. I'm not doing anything anyways"

X3 and, of course, as soon as we get outside and down the walk way, "Ah, finally"
he gets to have his ciggarette X3;;;

I know how much it drives him crazy to not be able to smoke in the house |D

On the way to the bank I kept spitting a lot |D; I do that when I can't have something in my mouth D8
but then I remembered the Candy Tree loli's I bought from Canadian Tire earlier that day X3
so I fished the first one out of my purse I could get my hands on. It ended up being the chili lime one mom bought me instead of the peach one I paid for and picked |D

"It's so big..."
Yeah, I seem to say that every time I have one...
but it's true dammit! D< it's so big I barely fit it in my mouth...
*facepalm* and that comment set off Kris laughing again.

Eh, it wasn't TOO bad though. I don't like spicy, but it was actually pretty good. I love lime btw XD that's why I like strawberry maragrita's. b/c it mixes two things I love together [with ice 8D] Strawberries and Lime <333

I wasn't able to finish it though. so I put it back in the wrapper and put it back in my purse for later.

Sadly Kris didn't get paid ^^; so he just had the money he had gotten from his brother Jerry [or is it Gerry? LOL sorry, I'm not sure how his name is spelled]
We ended up going to Mickey D's b/c it's like Kris' thing. He seems to need to go there whenever he comes to Terrace XD I just ate supper and a lot of beef jerky a while ago though, so I wasn't too hungry. I just bought a wrap. If you care to know he got a double big mac meal XD

we ended up hanging out ad the corner table thing at the end of the resturant near the front between the front and side windows |D
He took his sweet time eating. and like he said, we weren't in a rush. "it's open 24/7" and he jabbed his thumb in the direction of Husky XD where I wanted to go afterwards.
Yeah, we blabbed on about random stuph for a while. He was surprised at what time it was when he checked his phone once, but we didn't move XD
I was the one who suggested we get outta there before they kick us out. "So what, I paid for a meal, I'll stay here as long as I want" [LOL so something I'd say too |D;]
But yeah, we left. even after having to listen to whining kids and hear some supervisor woman get mad [I guess, scold at least] at the little girl she was looking after. I swear, I didn't see her there before I stood waiting in line. That woman was a bitch to say what she did. But if she had something to say to me she should say it to my face, not behind my back and to the little girl.
And that overprotective mother GAWD. it's no wonder her kid was bawling her head off with the way she spoils that kid. Don't go blaming other ppl for making your kid cry just because you don't know how to disapline properly.

but yeah, so after that we went to Husky... for candy shopping! LOL
yeah |D we bought lots of candy. and I bought Kris another primetime cherry cigar =.=b
I just like the way it smells okay?! *headdesk*
He doesn't seem to mind the flavor. and he likes those cigars and cigarello's a lot more than cig's. I'll have to try buy him a six pack of them next time then X3
I couldn't really hear him in Husky [I guess the three of us really do have soft voices |D;] but I'm pretty sure I heard him say he likes the purple and red flavors in genearl? I can't remember what purple was for primetime...
seems there are like three purples XD; grape (of course), raspberry (never would've guessed that would be purple), and wild berry.

Ah~
I can't remember what brand they were going to sell me at Shefield's though. I didn't want to buy a pack, just a single at the time XD; too see if Kris even liked that brand/flavor. but he seems to prefer cigars/cigarello's to cigs anyway. Cig's are just cheaper and easier to buy I guess?

but yeah, he ended up sharing his chewy center gobstoppers and rain-blo eye popper gum with me when we got home XD
We just hung out in the living room and watched Andrew and Wallace continue playing RE5 X3

Not too much else really happened XD it was more things we talked about that made things interesting.
and I don't really feel like saying what we talked about. and it'd be hard to talk about anyway |D b/c some of it's personal and some of it is... something you could only understand if you were there or have hung around with us a lot in the past XD

LOL I totally laughed at him telling me some chick called him "miss" before XD [that was at MacDonalds]
and he was pissed about Hoops calling him Leon b/c of his new hair style and brown leather coat. [that was in the kitchen when we were getting something to drink]
He totally seemed to cheer up when I told him about how being how being called Leon was better than Hoops telling me I should cosplay Jill. He really burst out laughing then, and wouldn't stop for a while XD;
and this all started from his quite "damn Hoops" *leans against the counter behind him holding his glass of pop*

"your too serious to do her. Sure she's serious sometimes... but you are way too serious"

Oh serious am I? LOL what do you girls think of that? I told you I'm seen as being very serious IRL

"Oh, I think Wallace [almost used his first name there |D; damn spending too much time with Kris] would have something to say about that"

And apparently Gina is going to be away in the Nass for two weeks. Which Kris regards as heaven XD
I guess he finds her a bit clingy and demanding? LOL and with her around he can't sleep as much as he wants to |D she wakes him up at like 10 am every morning telling him she's hungry, "You've got two legs and a heartbeat [traditional family saying] go make something for your damn self. I don't care"

LOL of course he'd likely be half sitting up, propped up on one elbow with his blanket sliding off rubbing the back of his head, one eye still closed and maybe yawning XD

lulz and he finds it annoying how she says "I Love You" to him all the time, and expects to hear it back a lot XD
I know I'm the same way. It can feel really smothering D:
"Yeah, that's what I like about you and Wallace, I don't have to say it all the time, but you guys just know"

which led me to remembering, "I said I Love You before/yesterday. It still stands today!" lol a paraphrase from a Comedian from Just For Laughs, but seriously, I think saying I love you should be held until further notice |D

I do still like Gina though.
LOL but I feel bad last time she came with Kris here... and I spent pretty much the whole time in my room with Kris while she was downstairs in the living room with andrew while she was on Kris' laptop |D [Wallace was sleeping btw, but we woke him up a little while before Kris left]

X3 and Kris left me two gum.
it's been a while since I had this kind <3
and it sorta surprised me that he also prefers sour candy just lilke I do |D;;;

He likes the sugar free Redbull where Wallace hates it. Wallace likes the regular Redbull and Kris hates it b/c it's too sweet.
"So... you don't like regular redbull because it's too sweet... but you like candy? *raise eyebrow*
"Yeah, crazy I know. But I do prefer sour."
"Mmm, yeah. I do too" <3

LOL and I didn't know Rosettes/GoldenBuds were a Canadian Delicacy |D;;;
just like Butter Tarts :| that's just so weird. I like Rosettes b/c they are a cheap and good tasting chocolate. and... I actually don't like butter tarts anyway XD; but Mom and Wallace like 'em.

|D; and I finally gave Kris that rug I bought him like a year ago. It's like white and off-white. "Yeah, this rug isn't going to last long"
"Hmm?"
"In this colour I mean"
"Oh yeah, I know that. I was going to put something on it... :\ but I forgot what."

But yeah, I just wanted to scribble up an entry before heading to bed XD; I'm pretty tired x.x;

Damn... and I was hoping to save this box of candy sticks for tomorrow |D; oh well. *eating the second last one now*
I was so sad D8 earlier I wasted one by accident. I was talking to Pidge on AIM, and then an extra one was coming out and I didn't notice b/c I was multi-tasking... so it fell out and snapped in half before falling into the broth of my ichiban noodles from earlier >_>;;;;;

I also just finished reading Pretty Face. It didn't seem to have a REAL conclusion... but it wasn't ended badly at least XD it just seems to be a pretty open ending. LOL it was a comedy romance I think? more comedy though, and it was awesome <3 I read it all on-line b/c I don't know if it's totally been released into English GN's yet. and there has only been volume one and two on sale for months at the book store. they don't even have it at the comic book store D8

and now I'm addicted to listening to Promise by Koumi Hirose b/c I finally got the full version XD;
<333 thanks Lyurii! and our YIM time was epic |D sorry if I was so boring T_____T
and I might try get on web cam with you some other time |D no sense having one if I neer use it, neh?

*on her last candy stick*
well... I don't think I had anything else to say...
so yeah, latz <3

[ - gawd - ]

Thu, 12 Mar 2009 07:27:12 GMT

my mood is totally ruined now. thanks for showing up and existing, thus pissing me off Hoops |:
yeah, he suddenly showed up on dA. I so left that place.
not after replying to him though. his idiocy knows no bounds, so I'm going to continue with this entry.

I was watching more of VK:G a few minutes ago. I caught up to ep 11. waiting for 12 and 13 atm.

and yeah, I read the newer chapters, waiting for the ZeroYuki kiss I was given spoilers by.

Frankly... I'm still hella dissapointed.
Not that I'm a fan of romance or shoju in the first place. so I'm not surprised.

LOL for a while there, I wasn't even sure if that qualified AS a kiss, or if it was a kiss |D;
the manga lines confuse me at times. or is it just the prettiness it's suppose to have that blinds me from being able to differentiate the lines? and they all look so much the same, it can be hard to tell what character is who and not mistake them for other characters.
That's why I like the anime more in some respects. though I can really see some nice emotion in the manga, where in the anime it can sorta get killed by the colour and such |D;

I dunno, I'm just unpleaseable I guess.

Which reminds me, I need to finish reading more of Pretty Face on-line. it's hard to find in town here. I'd prolly have to order it from the comic book store. but I don't know how much has been officially translated yet.
I do have the first volume of the Ocarina of Time GN on hold for me when it comes in though.

I don't want to go into my emoness...

but I really feel for Zero. And I hate Kaname. I used to feel for Yuki too, but now I just really seem to dislike her.

Poor Shiki and Rima too. LOL and it seems Akatsuki's love was one-sided |D;

LAWL but this reminds me of how I was watching Wallace play the WWE game I mentioned before...
and he was playing Triple H's storyline or whatever.
DUDE. that is totally a soap opera storyline right thar |D
I think that's one of the reasons I stopped watching Wrestling? LOL iunno. whatever. I think I only watched it in the first place b/c of uncle, I can't remember for sure.
So Triple H starts off with a fight against two other guys. Mr. Kennedy and HBK I think, neh?
Triple H wins [of course, wallace is playing as him]. So then he's moving up to face the guys name I forget, but he's champion. but then Mr. Kennedy and HBK show up and DQ the match XD they're about to get their revenge on Triple H [after having lost a handicap match the week before, where it was 2 vs 1 for the three of them], but then what's-his-face helps out Triple H and scares them off |D
er... I kinda forget what else happened, but the two of them tried screwing with Triple H some more and then whoever-he-is was responsible for saving Triple H again... with help from Animal? someone he knows?
LOL so then HBK and the champ dude are fighting/aruging over who Triple H should team back up with again.
so Triple H tells 'em "Okay, today I'll team with HBK, and next week in my next match I'll team with champion-dude. Everyone happy?" [might've gotten order wrong, but whatever.]
lol so he does, and wins both matches. Next thing I know, the two guys are gonna be goin' at it, and Triple H has been invited to be Guest Ref. So depending on who he decides to let win, that'll be who he teams up with.
Wallace tries fruitlessly to beat the shit outta both of them and get them BOTH disqualified, that way he doesn't have to pick either one XD [since he didn't feel an inclination to either]. But it didn't work so he just ended up deciding to let HBK win and be new champ.
So then Degeneration-X is reunited. but former-champ guy and his buds are pissed or something. so they [evolution I think was their team name] crash the party and wanna fight with the newly re-formed degeneration-X.
LOL so yeah, whatever. sounds like a stereotypical soap storyline to me. Just with more fighting XD I guess that's what makes it interesting enough to watch, but facepalming at the same time.
It was lots of fun watching the "ref" beat up the two where were suppose to be fighting though XD
Yeah, I think Wallace was fed-up with my commentary [mom had some too when she was around] b/c he stopped playing. "It's just like a Soap Opera but more *something-something*" lol and mom commented how it was just a macho version of a Soap XD

Ugh... I can't remember what else I had to say. I was ready go to all angsty, but now I don't feel like it.
and my eyes are sore, I think I'll just go to bed.

I had a weird dream again, but I've forgotten too much of it to be able to put any of it into words. the images themselves i was able to hold onto are too fleeting for me to make any sense of. so yeah.

OH
one thing I did have to say...

X3 LK put up an mp3 version of his "villian" song/vid thing on his LJ. you KNOW I totally DLed it. and now I wanna tell GxExM on dA that I got that and he put it up in the first place in my next reply to her |D
If you haven't seen Little Kuriboh's Villian Vid... go see it now. you are missing out X3 you can find it on CardGamesFTW on you tube

[ - Is Someone Getting The Best, The Best, The Best, The Best Of You? - ]

Mon, 09 Mar 2009 15:06:26 GMT

Are You Gone And On To Someone New?
I Needed Somewhere To Hang My Head
Without Your Noose
You Gave Me Something That I Didn't Have
But Had No Use
I Was Too Weak To Give In
Too Strong To Lose
My Heart Is Under Arrest Again
But I Break Loose
My Head Is Givin' Me Life Or Death
But I Can't Choose
I Swear I'll Never Give In
I Refuse
Is Someone Getting The Best, The Best, The Best Of You?
Has Someone Taken Your Faith, It's Real, The Pain You Feel
You Trust, You Must Confess

Has Someone Taken Your Faith, It's Real, The Pain You Feel
The Life, The Love, You'd Die to Heal
The Hope, That Starts, The Broken Hearts
You Trust, You Must Confess
Is Someone Getting The Best, The Best, The Best Of You?
I've Got Another Confession My Friend
I'm No Fool
I'm Getting Tired Of Starting Again
Somewhere new
Were You Born To Resist, Or Be Abused?
I Swear I'll Never Give In
I Refuse

Yeah... just felt like typing the song out.

D: I had a weird dream I can no longer remember! Prolly b/c it was from last night. and it hurts typing with my right pinky now T_T I cut my nail too short...

But yeah, watching Wallace and Andrew play WWE Smackdown vs. Raw 2009 on Andrew's 360 is actually more fun than I thought XD
I don't watch wrestling, but yeah lulz are had watching them play XD
It's too bad Andrew can't enjoy some games b/c he has the attention span of a gnat and doesn't like something that makes him think very much :|

Wallace went through all the trouble of brining the wire down from upstairs to hook-up to the 360 to the net though. LOL so Andrew was finally able to update it. Also, Wallace just wanted to try the RE5 demo |D he said it was actually pretty good.
I dunno though... from what I've heard of it and the spoiler I saw... D=

RE4 was a let down ;_; the Wesker-ness was awesomesauce, but other than that XD; yeah, I didn't like it a whole lot. Didn't feel like RE anymore. Just like FF =_=#

I do wanna try SH:H though. SH4 was... weird |D and different from the other three SH's before it. and Origin's wasn't so bad, though I haven't had time to finish it yet XD; It's on the PSP and since I have one of my own now I should have no excuse :|

kajflajfkajlfdksjafkj but I want Dissidia: Final Fantasy!
Release Date TBA in NA ¬_¬
but it was released on my b-day last year in Japan |D

Also, mom agreed to buy my Platinum when it's released 8D;
I feel like such a little kid *facepalm*

man, I should've bought that doujin pkmn notepaper/stationary when I saw it D= I actually can't find any anymore |D;
and I did wanna get the stationary from herrosferret, but someone already bought it T_T

Anyone know where I can find get some cool pkmn stationary or something? I'd prefer something WITHOUT Pikachu or it's evolutions |D or baby pkmn or sickingly cute and usless things like Torchic |:

=D I did get my letter written for Sarah though! *headesk* but I have nothing to send it in... I dun wanna fold the paper b/c I have a pic [and blank copies of the stationary I used and made] Ima send her with it that I don't wanna bend. I also need extra postage before I can send the letter b/c they upped the price AGAIN. I swear, it's less expensive for long distance calls than letter writing these days. and less restrictive too. Especially to the US ¬_¬#

I'm never going to forget how Nina's evenlop got torn to shreds [couldn't even see my return address] and someone stole the pen I gave her, but left her with the cap.

But yeah, I went to bed at like 7 pm last night and woke up at maybe 6 am today XD;
better than the 16 hours I had the day before.

|D I go from no hours sleep, to three, then 16 *facepalm*
Oh well. I went to bed early last night b/c I took over Wallace's job.
Yeah, he even quit his once a week on SUNDAY for a few hours job >_>

Are all the guys in my family SO LAZY?!
Well, I know Grandpa wasn't, but everyone else seems to be.

It seemed to skip with auntie Millie though, she can put the guys laziness to shame |D;

lol and when Kris was here he showed me the wolf design he's going to get tattooed onto his left arm X3
he's actually killerwhale clan, but he just likes wolf designs |D He did say he was thinking of getting a killerwhale tattooed around his right wrist and on the back of his hand. And he's trying to find a design for the Curse Mark he likes for his neck. XD and after watching some of my Vampire Knight Sub's on my comp, he got to not only liking Zero ("He's a pretty cool character for an asshole" LAWL) [he's my favorite <3] but also his tattoo X3

But I had also been thinking on it for a while. About whether or not I'd give Mich any tattoo's or scars.
LOL b/c even if I did I wasn't sure what kind. He obviously has mental/emotional scarring [or is it obvious?] but I wasn't too sure about physical scars. If anything it'd prolly be a burn since he specilizes in fire types? or maybe less likely b/c he specilizes in fire types and so did his father?
LOLOLOLOL I'll give him a birthmark on his forehead |D
*facepalm* okay, now I'm just getting off-track

XD; anyway, back to what I was talking about at the START...
yeah, I did have a weird dream D= I can't remember details, all I remember anymore is that Brandon was in it and my avatar was around him a lot. Like... I dunno, either hanging around him all the time or traveling with him somewhere? [by foot]
Sorry, I can't remember anything more than that. And all I remember about my dream last night was that I was traveling with some girl =\

Also, like I said in my dA journal, I might go on hiatus for a while. Dunno when, or how long IF I do though.
Just getting to depressed and emo, thus making me seem to be really angry |D; so I'd rather just get away from everyone for a while than end up upsetting ppl.

And I also have a lack of will to keep drawing or making anything really T_T
I just lost it somewhere. Well, I do still have a desire to make/draw things, but I can't bring myself to really do it a lot of the time. |D; I feel a lot of pressure about it.
=| and I know there are ppl who don't like some of the things I draw too, so I feel like why should I bother showing anyone anymore.

I do need to gather up some of my stuph for my portfolio for my application to school in september also though. But I have no idea what to have IN my portfolio |D;
I'm going for First Nations Arts, and I haven't done that in YEARS. I mean, LOTS OF YEARS. The last time I really did that was maybe in grade eight or nine? LOL so that's like *counts* maybe 11-13 years? HOLY SHIT. Over a decade ago |D;;;;;
Almost as old as some of my on-line friends 8D;

Well... I've mostly run out of things to say |D; I wonder... if I do think of other things to say AFTER I write a journal... if I should just edit the previous entry, or make a new one? I considered making a new one |D but then I'd sorta feel like that's spamming. but if I just edit an entry [have done it in the past already] does anyone get notified of updates? or do they read the first unedited part, then never see the edits afterwards? LOL iunno |D

[ - facepalm - ]

Sun, 08 Mar 2009 04:45:59 GMT

yup, facepalm. that's my reaction to my last journal XD;;;;;

but yeah. I guess that's sleep deprivation for you. the day before last I had like 3 hours sleep, and today I had 16....

I 've been awake for maybe an hour and a half and I just wanna go back to sleep.

Felt like a dream. I blame that on the sleep deprivation.
I was forcing myself to stay out of bed last night. I was just checking on dA and stuph. Wondeirng if anyone was on-line. Seems like Kiko-chan and cherry-san were. I usually just send random comments to cherry-san. since it's pointless really to expect replies from kiko-chan soon after sending her something. I'll get a reply like 2 weeks later. maybe |D

I didn't feel like I had anything to say to cherry-san though. so I decided to go on iScribble just for kicks. I was feeling emo and thought mabye I could draw something...

but no. I ended up just sitting there starring at the non-blank canvas, or not even really starring at it, just looking like I was while my mind was busy with other crap |D;

*totally started spaking out for a few minutes there*

uh yeah XD; anyway.

I was off somewhere else (forget where) and when I came back I found kiko-chan had logged on, logged off, logged on again, then said hi to me XD

she asked about cherry-san. I just told her I saw her on-line at dA [but didn't talk to her really].

so then cherry-san ended up logging on sometime after that.

and I can't tell how soon she logged on. I can't really differentiate time very well from yesterday. Thus the reason I said it felt all dream-like.

But what I was REALLY reffering to was shortly before kiko-chan logged off on iScribble without me knowing. and she did that without me knowing because of what happened.

Suddenly Kris and Gina showed up |D
I think at maybe 10pm?

Yeah, I was surprised. Not only had Gina come along, but Cora didn't |D
Kris said she was sick so she didn't come this time.

LAWL
sadly enough... I ended up just spending time with Kris *facepalm*

Wallace was sleeping so Kris spent a lot of his time sittin' around in my room.
Me being all sleep deprived I was likely no fun for him.

Wallace was already asleep. and Andrew had said to Kris that Wallace had gone to bed about an hour before Kris and Gina came by. So Kris didn't really wanna go in and wake him up.
Also, it just takes Kris ages to decide to do something for sure. He'll talk about it, about wanting to do it, about doing it, but he won't ACTUALLY do it for quite a while. If ever [before it's too late I mean].

Most ppl attribute that to his being lazy. I think it's more about his worry for the consequences of his actions.

Especially when it comes to waking up Wallace. Yeah. those can be some serious consequences there XD;

I don't think he'd think twice about waking me up though.

mostly likely b/c I can't exact my full rage upon him b/c he's one of my best friends and I love him to bits.

He's pretty tight with Wallace too. but Wallace has different kinds of relationships with his freinds than I do. Also, they're both guys and they don't like being too affectionate with one another.
And Kris is the one with the dirty mind, so yeah.
lololol
he has made some comments to Wallace though, and then facepalmed [and usually laughs as well] seconds later, thinking about what it sounded like.
No, I won't put them here. Not only can I not rememeber exact words, but also, imagining can be more fun, neh? LOL especially if you remember I used them as bases for two of my OC's, and if you like emoshipping.

Though he's also done the same with me. But I bug him about it more than Wallace does. Sure he can have a sense of humor, but he seems like such a stick-in-the-mud sometimes. Either that or his humor just comes outta no where. Though he always sounds serious. It's usually slight tone changes or slight facial expression alterations you need to pay attention to in order to understand Wallace better |D

GAWD. I was so emo yesterday. I mean seriously emo.
for some odd reason I also had this strange fear of getting OFF the internet. this feeling that if I did I'd end up hurting myself |D;
That's also why I didn't get off the comp and go to sleep Kiko-chan. Not only because I already told you that even if I did go to sleep. I'd end up just lying there unable to sleep.

Having Kris around [even if just for about 3 hours] did help put me at ease though. And the smell of the cigar I gave him helped too.
I dunno how that helps calm me down though.
I had forgotten I had it until maybe an hour and half since he was here XD;
Though I usually get like that-
oh crap, and I forgot to give him his rug too |D; I bought him a rug like over a year ago that I kept forgetting to give him.
But yeah, it seems only the smell of smoke from certain ppl will calm me down. From dad it just makes me... anxious? for Jose it can sort of calm me down, but not the same way as with Kris or Dan. Dan is one of mom's ex-boyfriends, and also heir to the first family in the villages [of our Clan the wolf clan]. I liked Dan. But not all the time. He drinks too much [like most ppl back home] and other stuph I don't feel like listing. Doesn't bug me half as much as Jose does though. I could actually feel like considering Dan a step-father. I would never dream of seeing Jose that way. EVER.

But yeah, I felt bad about leaving Gina downstairs by herself. Well, techinically Andrew was down there. I don't think they really talked though. Gina can be a lot like me actually |D; she's not as bad as Darelene though :| [and if you dunno that's Fredrick's girl].

lol and when I was talking about volleyball with Wallace [b/c he was playing Dead or Alive Extreme 2 on Andrews 360] he didn't seem to connect Gina's name to being Kris' girlfriend. I had to tell him, and then he was all, "Ooooooh!"

I hate how Hoops is always dissing Gina. I like her dude!
LOL he says it's b/c she's always mean to him. Hell, I think I'm pretty mean to him and he still seems to love me for whatever warped reason he's got.
I still say it's b/c he's jealous of her, that's why. He's always like that with ANY of Kris' girlfriends.

Though, he seems to say the other guys don't like Gina either. But you can't always trust anything Hoops says.

And it seems to just be because she's apprently with him all the time and stuph. Hell, she's not as bad as Darlene though. It's almost litterly like she's stuck to his hip. He can't seem to go anywhere without her. Well, more like she can't go anywhere without him |D;
Kinda weird to me how someone like Fredrick of all ppl could seem to get whiped and be chained down with a ball and chain. Not something I ever expected.
Though what mom was saying could hold water. It probably is his way of getting away from home. Since Wallace and I aren't living next door anymore he's got no where and no one to run to. His one other cousin died too. And JR who used to live up the hill lives with his gf out in gukla or something.

so even if she can seem to be a crappy girlfriend from some POV's, maybe it's actually him who's clinging to her than the other way around if you know Fredrick as well as Mom and Wallace and I do. Kris too. Though I've never heard Kris say anythign about Darlene one way or another.
Fredrick does seem to genuinely care about Darlene though. So I don't really say anything.
I know I've told Kris about how I don't like Darelene before. I can't remember what he said. I just remember him having that mischivious look on his face and running over to Gina, just blurting out that I don't like Darlene.
D= that jerk. Don't just out and say it like that! Especially if we are out in PUBLIC and at a store!
LOL and to me freaking out at Kris just blurting it out like that Gina just seemed to smile, "Oh, don't worry. I don't like her either." and then she just goes back to shopping, except with the smile still on her face.

Geez, thanks Kris. Even if Gina doesn't seem to mind, still. But at LEAST Gina didn't seem to mind, and she agrees.

LOL but after giving Kris the cigar, "Whoa! Where'd you score this?" and he seemed to be playign with it for a while.
I told him I got it from the store [LOL] but then later specified from Husky after a few moments of silence to relish the humor of my reply.

LAWL I was thinking about telling him I stole it from Wallace though. it WAS the exact same one Wallace has |D
remember the one I was telling you about in that other journal? lol if not never mind, it's not all that important, but it was funny.

But yeah, I was just back to replying to ppl on the comp, and when I looked back to see him. he had the thing in his mouth. LOL still in the little case it comes in though. Er... it was a prime time. I'll try find a pic of it for ya:

like those, the one I got him was cherry, the dark red. LOL and I just realized it was also his favorite colour |D;
well, his fav colour is red in genearl, but he'll also go with pink if he can't get something red.

and yes, he does actually wear pink at times.

but yeah, it's about the same size as a cig. it being a cigarello and all. and it was a single. so yeah, he had it hanging out of the corner of his mouth.
LAWL while I was chewing on my stylus.
D= I misplaced my blue one... so I've started on my red one |D;

Also, I was [and still am] wearing my Nintendo touque. I washed my hair so it was all soft and fluffy. UGH. getting in my face |D; even tying it back, some of the strangs that aren't long enough [almost bangs but not enough of them yet] kept annoying me. so I just put my toque on.
and I guess that's the same reason he was wearing his cap. to keep his hair outta his face XD

LAWL and I was wearing it for a few mintues until he was just starring at me. I was giving him a funny look in return. Before I could say anything he replied with, "I just noticed you have controllers on your head..."
*facepalm* yeah |D
so I just took it off and handed it to him. telling him I bought it in PG. from Black Sheep I think it was. yeah, it's also reversable. He thought it was pretty cool though he didn't really say it I don't think XD I just know he liked it.

I had thought about buying one for him... but I already got him lots of presents XD; and this was before Christmas. So I just bought it for myself |D; I really liked it myself after all.

Wallace always wears his hat. Not in the house though. Just if we are outside or somewhere that's not at home or someone's house that we'll be at for a while. Or if we're in a building that dad or Grandpa would tell him to take his hat off in [like a church or whatever].

XD and I let Kris listen to Lucy too. He was all surprised. I guess thinking it seemed so retro. Being amazed I found such a thing.

He was also getting me to listen to some music... D: sorry I forgot the song names or the band even... they sounded decent enough. but it made me want to snicker. Him telling me they were recommended to him. B/c so-and-so said they seemed to suit him or something like that. He did seem to like one song in particular though. I could hear him quietly singing along to some of the lyrics.

Which reminds me...
all three of us seem to speak quietly. Kris, Wallace, and myself. Gina and Andrew as well I guess. Of course, Andrew, Kris, and I can be loud XD; yeah we can be. but most of the time we seem to speak quietly. I know we've been told more than once that someone couldn't hear us or whatever.
And when we talk to each other we tend to talk quietly.
LOL I was reminded of that b/c I was thinking about it, and b/c of when I was wi-fi battling Kiko-chan on the DS, and Wallace came in near the end of the battle. Kiko-chan said she could hear our voices, but not what we were saying. and she heard my one weird laugh XD;
but yeah, for one of the battles I wasn't sure what move to use, I told Wallace and put my DS in front of him to show him, so he just picked a move for me |D;;;

Also, after I told him Kiko-chan could hear us he stopped saying anything |D; seemed to be embarrased someone could hear his voice.
Maybe I should tell him Kiko-chan couldn't hear what we were saying anyway XD

But yeah, some time after I'g given Kris the cigarello he voiced, "...what a time to not bring a lighter..."
"Actually, I have lighters."
"Really?"
"yeah, I have a whole bunch. Building up my collection again"

|D; though I only found the three. I'm not sure where I put my other like... 6 XD;

LOL and being the person he is... I leave and when I come back he's on my comp. checking out my files. Like always.
Though when he opened my doujinshi folder again, I told him it's prolly not something he wants to look at.
He did last time, thinking it wasn't too bad. and I think he found a rather graphic one of Cid and Vincent "It's Final Fantasy, it can't be that bad- nevermind..."
so this time he was like, "They're all guys aren't they"
"yeah, I don't really have any hentai ones. I had to delete a lot of files before I got my external."

So he ended up looking through my pictures folder. finding some of my OLD OLD iScribble pics that I don't really want to look at anymore myself, let alone let other ppl look at!

Don't think the one pic that Jch told me she didn't want anyone else to see was in there though. LAWL it was one she drew |D; so yeah. I told her I saved it and she was all, "what? NOOOOOOOOOO! It's horrible!"
"LAWL Don't worry! I won't let anyone else see it!"
"Oh... okay then..."

LOL but homg, he saw one WalGary pic XD it wasn't too bad though, but still. He also saw one of my first MichJo pics too |D; one that I spontaneously drew for resons I no longer remember. and I fully coloured it, added a background, and scribbled lyrics on the side to a love song XD;;;
So yeah, he just said the same thing he says every time he sees one of my MichJo pics.
I dunno why he never says anything about WalJo though :| AND that he even suggested them being siblings [technically he said long lost siblings]. And didn't seem to voice a disagreement about there being WalJo implications even after that >_>

Kris is just weird like that I guess.

Not as bad as Hoops though. Geez.

I saw a pick on dA earlier. A snapshot someone randomly took between two cars. Title had something about a drag race. It looked pretty cool IMO. LOL the girl wasn't dressed all skimply.
So I ended up thinking about myself. but then killed that thought, "Oh hell no. Hoops would enjoy that too much. Not only that, but prolly expect me to be wearing something really skimpy too boot."

OMG
damn. cherry-san sent Kiko-chan and I a note like an hour ago... about wanting to talk to us on iScribble D=
I just logged on but she's set to away atm T_T
I also replied to her dA note... but I dunno if she's still around. Kiko-chan isn't, and cherry-san is idling on dA.
I hope she at least got a hold of Kiko-chan?

LOL it being the weekend I didn't expect to see ANY of the girls. but suddenly I got to see Jch on AIM while Kris was still around too |D;

though it's not like kiko-chan really talked to me all that much on iScribble |:
she spent most of her time either chatting to cherry-san or I ended up just talking to cherry-san myself.
bad topic choices it seems.
and even when cherry-san picked something to include kiko-chan she still ignored us for a long time.

serously kiko-chan. this is why I spend most of my time with cherry-san these days.
it's almost like you don't even care anymore.
LOL and I alrealdy told you that it's started to feel more like Rene's love for Mich. You tell me you want my attention, but you don't give me much back. And you talk to everyone else more anyway XP so there. I don't see why I should be talking to you if we have nothing to talk about anymore.

Of course you know I still love you though. At least you better :|
I dont' call you my wife for nothing yanno. I still consider you my wife and you have a slight priority over cherry-san. She is my first/#1 Mistress though. Mostly owing to the fact I see her more than anyone else. And you are still like her #1 Seme.
So don't go feeling like we don't care.

Well, I think I'll be going now. cherry-san is alive on iScribble XD

[ - shake, shake, shake, shake, shake it - ]

Tue, 03 Mar 2009 13:02:13 GMT

|D yeah, random ideas to that song.

Well, I did get that ink. the Sepia ink. I was hoping to get some white ink... but they didn't have what I was looking for D=
I already have the FV Acrylic Artsits Ink [White]

And the one I bought more recently was the flesh tint:

but started thinking... after looking at the inks at Creative zone and this one site that maybe the Raw Sienna

would be good for my darker skined OC's...
not that I've tried the flesh tint.
And I'll prolly try mixing the white with the flesh tint to get the lighter shade of skin tone I need for Jovan and Fredrick. Though I think Fredrick is the one with the lightest skin tone |D;

I was looking for some white ink to use for corrections on my traditional art... the FW ink I have is too Opaque, it doesn't work the way I need it to. I don't like using white out. I have a correction pen and don't really like how it turns out after. I have bottles of white out ink and don't like how that works either. it ends up making it very obvious that I used white out there for a mistake XD;
So NOT what I'm going for.
I have a white gel pen too, but that dosen't work. Do I press too hard? b/c the ink comes out, but on both ends of the little ball, leaving a streak in the middle with no ink |D;

all they had at Creative Zone was this... it's non-waterproof though, and says you shouldn't mix it with other brands, so I didn't buy it
[Higgins non-waterproof white drawing ink]

I do have some empty paint brush pens though. so I guess I'll just have to mix up my own solution of bottled acrylic white paint and put it in there.

anyway, the ink I DID buy was Sepia |D; not 100% on how it looks when used, there was no colour patch of it on display :\ so I'll just have to test it out and see.

Ooh! and looking at this on-line store called cheap joes some more...
this Walnut Drawing Ink sounds pretty good. I don't have any real drawing ink |D; I've been meaning to get some but... yeah.
I do have a little stick to make my own Chinese ink though. and the little block thing to make it in. I should prolly buy one of those glass bottles from Creative Zone to store the ink I make |D;
I also have a little bottle of black ink [speedball, same brand as my #102 Hunt Crow Quill Pen nibs and nib holder things, but I bought the pen and nibs seperately from the set that came with ink] that came with a cheap-o calligraphy set I bought at Walmart. Just a pen and ink. a lot of the ink spilled out when I first got it |D; somehow it got knocked over I guess? D: I was so sad! lucky most of it was only on the table and paper, thus being easy to clean :|
but what a waste! BAAAAWWWWWWW

I also have this weird little bottle of black ink XD;

haven't had a chance try use it... LOL I dunno how I would use it |D; seeing how I either use brushes or my nip pens that I need to dip into ink... |D;

the weird bottle of ink is waterproof, that's why I bought it in the first place! the FW inks are water resistant. also why I bought them. but the FW ink bottles also have a built in eyedropper X3 They are also pigmented, and suppose to be non-clogging.

I have one other bottle of ink. It's blue, of course X3
It was on display with the FW inks, but it's a different brand... Calli I guess? it's calligraphy ink. it's also suppose to be non-clogging, pigmented, and waterproof. but I also bought it b/c I loved the shade of blue <3 it's got Blue 011 on the side XD
I can't find any pics of it on-line |D; sorry.
I did find this one [different colour] though:

pretty sure I mixed my inks with my paints before. I put the ink down as a base layer for a couple images, then painted over top of that. For my first Emoshipping image I put a layer of white ink down first, then put two or three coats of black paint over it to get the dark grey I wanted for Wallace's hoodie. And I think I mixed the paint with my ink for the one of the blue hues too... prolly Mich's dark blue in his shirt.

but yeah, the ink I bought was FW, in sepia. the Walnut drawing Ink said it makes good sepia tones... so yeah, hopefully this will work good for me.
I can prolly use it for Mich's dark brown hair too. if not add a bit of black ink to it for a darker brown?

A while ago mom also bought me a couple bottles of textile paints. that way I can use those to paint on fabric. She made some bags she let me have so I can paint stuph on them. She bought me white and beigh paint. white mostly so I can mix it with the beige to get the skin tone I want/need |D

what sucks though, one of my speed ball pen things... the nib broke, yeah, I'm not sure how. I have an idea but yeah |D;
somehow the nib like... snapped off, so there is some of the metal still stuck in the pen holder part... and I couldn't get it out. making the holder utterly useless. I can't put a new nib in there until I take out the old one D<
but I bought some needlenose and flatnose pliers [for a different project], so I might try use those to get that nib piece out.

lulz
also, au bought some more Laurentian glitter markers from wal-mart.
Here I thought they were a different brand from the ones I got at Liquidation World, but looking at them now they are the same brand, just way different packaging XD;
though the markers themselves look a lot different too.

The reason I bought those pliers was because I'm going to start making pendants and such out of my some of my precious stones and rocks and stuph.
LOL
yesh, I collect rocks |D;
Something I've been doing for a long time. but I slowed WAY down in the past few years. I had to slow down b/c I was making time for school studying. And then on-line socializing after that |D; [work too].

I have some jade rock pieces that I bought specifially to make pendants out of. So I bought some very thin wire and some wire cutters to go with the pliers I bought.
I also still have an Apache Tear and Snowflake Obsidian rock in my little black box on my desk.
Jose also bought me a rock tumbler or whatever for Christmas. This was for me to polish up my rocks and stuph. Because yeah, I have a thing about collecting quartz rocks |D;
My favorite place to hunt for them are in lakes, rivers, creeks, streams, etc.
Quartz would prolly be the only rock I collect that anyone would be interested in buying. and I have a lot more quartz than any other rock b/c they are so easy to identify. I mean, they are white against dark colours surrounding them |D they are the easiest to spot and I can collect them a lot faster than other kinds.
Though I seem better able to spot them than other ppl XD
I can see them in rushing water when other ppl don't notice them.
and LAWL people don't seem willing to wade into or walk into fast rushing water like I am to get a rock XD so I can get ones other ppl don't want to get, or just miss altogether.
though... :| I don't know anyone else who collects rocks....

Most people only like the ones that get mined and cut, etc.

I like raw rocks more myself |D; they look cool.
I do sorta like crystals though.
and I do also sorta collect polished rocks that you can buy in the store. but not as much as I used to.

lulz
b/c before Andrews b-day Mom and Wallace went to Kristin's Emporium [awesomesauce little shop in the strip mall along the Lazelle (the main street)] uptown, and Wallace was thinking of getting one of the rock pendants they were selling. But he doesn't know the meanings of stones and such. And him and mom remembered how I like rocks and genearlly know their meanings and properties and stuph. So they decided they'd ask me, or bring me there next time they go to ask me.

LOL
sadly it's been too many years for me and I don't remember enough about rocks to be of help "OTL
I can mostly only differentiate between the rocks, not remember their meanings and such...

I'm going to study up on them again though.

lol and reading the recent issue of Pig Bride in Yen+ Jade was mentioned |D
"Jade clears a person's chi and is good for the body..."

|D; now I don't remember what else I was gonna say... in relation to that anyway.

but yeah D:
I went to bed at like 9 last night. but woke up at like 1 am or something and could NOT go back to sleep T_T
so I've been awake since then *facepalm*

I feel too warm. and my back is sore, I feel so hunched over and can't straighten my back right D=

lulz of course my hands are still freezing cold though |D;

And b/c it's so hard to put bills into my new [black] leather wallet from some store in PG... I decided I WOULD start using my Naruto Wallet for bills. and my black one for my cards |D; since I have so damn many >.>;
lol no, I don't have any credit cards |D; they are mostly ID cards, store cards (like for safeway or the library), and those... what are they called... discount cards? Like you spend a certain ammount of money in the store, or you buy something and you get a stamp or section hole punched out and stuph.

UGH which reminds me... I so should've just found like $2 of other stuph to buy from Creative Zone yesterday. If I had I would've spent about $10 and could get another stamp on my card D<

*doublefacepalm*
and I totally forgot about my canvasing/fundrasing last month....
I still have the unopened kit in my room.... *headdesk*

blah... my headache is coming back... and I'm starving for food D:
Andrew should be waking up for school soon |D; so maybe I'll go downstairs and get something to munch on, before he wakes up. prolly just pour a bowl of cereal and take another package of Raindbow Chips Ahoy! to my room XD;;;;

Oh yeah, real healthy breakfast neh? LOL but it is healty Cereal! Rice Crispies!

I also need to decide what to use my Oil Pastels on... and then figure out what I'll put on the Canvas' I bought |D; I can't decide what I wanna paint on my canvas' D=
I have my own brushes and acrylics too. but mom will also let me use her paints.
I'm thinking of starting to use my manila paper some more too.

and I SO need to write more letters to everyone |D;
I wanna draw a lil something too X3
but it's expensive to send letters these days D< [cheaper to call longdistance! LAWL though mom and I have a special package so we can call anywhere to the US or Canada for unlimited minutes |D; and 1000 free minutes a months for overseas 8D;] and so much trouble. especially to the US =_=;
how are you suppose to send someone a present and NOT have them know what it is or how much it was when you have to write what it is and how much it's worth on the package for customs?

I'm gonna wait until I get Sarah's letter before I write to her though.

X3 and I sent the edible tattoo's to that someone. *facepalm* they were in my room so long... I had thought I lost them! but I found them |D

Also! 8D;
guess what.
well I'm telling you what! LOL
I bought a real black leather collar |D yesh, one intended for dogs.
Sadly it's not spiked like the one I want D=
lol but anyway, it fits on me XD
why the hell you ask?
LOL b/c previously I bought a little pendant pet tag thin |D
it's spelled differently [the more common way] than my OC, but it still says Michael XD;
*doublefacepalm* yesh, you can shoot me now...

I was in such a horrible mood 8D but now I feel better. aside from the headache and feeling too warm |D; I'm like... all high or something.
D= but I don't do drugs. and I didn't take any meds for anything... WTF? LOL is it just that wacky womans hormones things?
I was SO FUCKING EMO AND DEPRESSED [for the past week or more]. And now I'm wacky crazy high or something |D; I'm not a teenager anymore, the hell? :|

[ - </3 - ]

Sun, 01 Mar 2009 15:53:40 GMT

Yeah, dammit. Lips of an Angel is playing atm |D; I have a love-hate for this song. I never liked it when I first heard it, but I made myself watch the whole vid anyway. I only 'like' it in the sense of using it for a love triangle with characters (namely my OC's).

lulz the Wiki entry says that Austin Winkler [lead vocalist of Hinder] said the song is not about cheating |D;

With that said I think I can apply it best to the MichReneJo triangle? LOL though, that was the main one I had in mind anyway.

I'm getting SICK of hearing ppl bitch about Hinata's death. Yes, even ppl who don't like her are bitching. I really hate the ppl who bash her or NaruHina. saying it'll never happen anyway or other things like that. JUST SHUT THE FUCK UP.

I am sad she seems to be dying at least D=
At least she confessed though.
But yeah, I think her survival chances are pretty slim. Unless Kishi pulls the Sas Retrieval Arc stunt again. Though that might be hard to do. As back then things moved AWAY from where it looked like the minor characters fought. Naruto is still in the general area fighting Pein atm.

I'm more worried about how Neji will/is handling this though. Or the other Hyuuga's for that matter. Sure we know Hinata wasn't the most gifted Hyuuga, but she is the first child and daughter of the head of the clan, neh?

Oh well, whatever, I don't wanna talk about that in this entry anymore.

I threw together a slideshow. But I forgot to add my cool couple image to it T_T
I only realized that AFTER I linked it on dA |D;;;;; *facepalm*

gawd.
I've had a headach for a while now. I'm not even sure why. and the day before yesterday I was coughing for a while. but that usually happens when I just wake up. Maybe it was more than normal? Mom told me to take some advil for cold and sinus before going to work.

Man, it's weird though. I think I'm really sensitive to heat XD;
Wallace's hand seems to generate a lot of it. him just putting his hand near me and I can feel it. It sorta makes me flinch away or want to, or something |D;
I'm just not accostumed to someone elses body heat.
After he washes his hands and they're cool... yeah, I don't mind that. I like the cool sensation of him resting his cool palm against my forehead.

lulz he finds it fasinating.

His hands are always so warm. and mine are always ice cold XD;

I was also writing up more profiles for Mich and Wallace. More notes for me though. But I let some ppl have the link to them. Wallace had more written for him. WAY more |D;
but reading stuph from Wiki or linked from Wiki...
lulz it seems to me like Cancer (the zodiac sign!) does seem to fit Mich pretty well.
LOL and I seem almost sure that Oct. 31st will be Wallace's b-day |D;

And I'm still not totally sure if I'll be making an LJ account for my OC's D:

lol i got like 5 votes saying it was a stupid idea OTL
I expected more. but the majority is a yes.

I should DL The Reason *Inisde of You playing atm*
LOL Wallace hates that song. A LOT. I mean it!
I can't remember his entire story, but he was telling me he heard it WAY too much. Like everywhere? so he's sick of hearing it.

Eh, I never LOVED listening to Hoobastank I don't think. I think I sorta lumped them in with Hinder XD;
though, I became obessed with Inside Of You |D;
I had started a puppyshipping slideshow to that song, but YT removed it.
and they disabled my Hotel California slideshow even before it was able to be viewed |D;
That's why I had to host it in a zip file and then link it on dA through a deviations with a... Preview Image? I don't really think it's an actual preview image if the image itself isn't in the slideshow is it? LOL

It was just something I threw out there before uploading to dA. Initially I was going to do a mini comic. maybe 3-4 panels... LOL but like with most Mich-related things... I didn't *facepalm* I only did things part way and changed my mind on the direction I was going or just opted for less work.

Which had me thinking...
do I seem to like... channel some of my characters through myself when I draw/write/work with them? I sorta think I might |D;

I hope I'm not sick D: </random reference to earlier mention in the journal>
But that time of the month does not Kick Ass. it sucks ass ;_;

Especially this time around.

lol
I got most of my garbaged cleaned outta my room. and most of my laundry is done. but I still have my huge line-up of empties next to my desk |D; I drink a lot of Arizona Ice Tea!

ergh... it's almost 8 am. I dunno if I wanna go to bed now, or try stay awake longer |D;

and I guess Rene is still in my Emerald version XD; I need to migrate her over to my Diamond. Since it seems I can't rent Ruby from Video Stop anymore. Not that I'd want to if she'll make me pay over $10 to do so D: and she refuses to sell me the game. LOL not that I can buy it since it doesn't even seem to be on the shelf |D; and I looked for it in the cases that are for sale games and didn't see it.

[ - ugh... - ]

Wed, 25 Feb 2009 08:32:16 GMT

I have a headach...

I don't even know why. it's just there...
I'm not sure if it was just after Kiko-chan signed off, or just before.

got to battle her at least.
even if I was so outta it that I forgot to go to the bottom level of the center |D;
I need to get my sleep schedule back again...

Why am I watching Geass in English? I hate most of the voices, and I hate the series/storyline/[a few of the main] characaters in genearl |D;
I found the official release of it on You Tube by Bandai... so yeah.

I also got two songs off of Wallace. Stray Cat and All Hail Britannia.

It's so hard to listen to Yuri Lowenthai... [I think I'm mostly watching it to see Suzaku and to hear Crispin Freeman as Jeremiah |D;]

lulz all he really said in AF:R was "afro" unless you count the flashback stuph.

D: it's too hard to talk to anyone about Geass though. They are all for Lelouch, and love him. Lots of ppl seem to dislike or even hate Suzaku. Who is the only character I really love. I do like Lloyd too though X3 and Mao was cool. I'm too dissapointed with Kallen D: and I really don't like C.C. None of the other females really catch my attention in a way that's favorable. except maybe Villetta. wait, I guess I like Cécil XD; but forget about her D: [lulz paring her with Lloyd or even Suzaku = fun]

I lost the stickers auction on ebay like I thought I would. still considering buying some playing cards for Wallace though.
most of the doujin's I found there were Suzaku/Lulu |D;

gawd... it's going to take me forever to get my line art to a point where I'll feel like colouring it D: [where I think it's good enough to colour i mean]
I'm talking about my MichRene cool couple art btw.

Cool Couple -DoubleBattle- by *Aisuryuu on deviant ART
I fixed her hand... but now it looks too small and her arm still seems off |D;
I'm still disatisfied with pretty much all of Mich. Especially his main pose, the positioning of his bag/pouch, as well as the shape of the pokeball pattern on his jacket...
It's hard drawing lines in Corel Painter D: but it looks better than if I try line art in MS Paint |D; and I can use layers in Painter. I haven't gotten used to Photoshop enough yet.[not used to manipulating the pen tool]. and I only used it for colouring really before. Well, I did draw ONE image in it before. but that was years ago.
Still. If I ever reach a point where I'm okay with it enough to try add colour, I'll prolly try it in Photoshop. Might end up using Painter again XD;
but I also wanna try it traditionally. I just got some skin tint ink <3 did I say that before sometime as well? or was that only in my dA journal?
I do wanna buy more inks though. that sepia seems like a good idea. maybe cool gray and/or [metallic] Silver as well.

I also got hypercam. did I say that already?
I wanted to try use it to record myself playing Stepmania |D; It'll have to be before 11 pm though. We have noise/volume restrictions in this city.

what a surprise. Hoops called today. he actually called on the phone |D
apparently he was getting sick of being out at Dave's in Smithers. so he was back home.
Playing Crystal. LOL apparnetly he'd never gone to the Dragon's Den. EVER.

also, dA Poll related to LJ: http://aisuryuu.deviantart.com/journal/poll/504519/

I really don't know what else to put here...
but check it out 8D; I didn't friend lock!

[ - Come my lady, come, come my lady. Your my butterfly, sugar baby - ]

Fri, 30 Jan 2009 17:27:56 GMT

Oh how I missed that song <3 Do any of you remember or know it? Butterfly by Crazytown?

LOL it had me thinking about drawing myself and Jch to this song b/c I told her the animal she reminds me of is a butterfly |D
but I also wanted to draw an image with everyone I answered that meme to in their animal form:
*Pidge = Raven
*Kiko-chan = mouse [couldn't think of anything, first thing to come to mind XD]
*Cherry-san = Octopus. [No animal suits her better XD]
*Jch = Butterfly [first thing to come to mind, but felt it fit?]

and pidge replied with me being a red fox XD so maybe I'd draw myself as a red fox in there as well?
LOL you know cherry-san would be holding Kiko-chan on one tentacle, prolly holding pink dresses with poofly sleeves in another, along with a maid dress and make-up in others XD
yeah, I have ideas, I just don't think I can draw them atm OTL
I was happy to finally draw something, that Wallace and Jovan sketching... but after looking at it again I really dislike it T____T

Oh GAWD. My body is sore and tired from work the past couple days... tried calling earlier to tell Chris[tine] we wouldn't be in to work today [mom's too sick], but no answer. They seemed to have more than enough help yesterday anyway. And we aren't even actually employed at the dollar store XD; so yeah...

something weird was going on with mom's mastercard yesterday...
we need new shoes (the ones we have aren't good for work), and we noticed there was a sale on the main street strip mall at a couple of the shoe stores. so we went in there to see if there was anything. the first one didn't have anything... sadly. The second did, but for some reason her card was rejected...
dunno why. we both KNOW she's no where near her limit. and she JUST made a payment on it.
So she's gonna have to get a hold of them again to see what the problem is. This has happened once before. and it was something to do with it not being activated yet, even if they said it was =.=;

Oh yeah! dream |D;
I can't remember deatails so well, but it was hella weird.
I forget what was going on at the start, but from what I DO remember:
seemed like some atomic bomb was going off or whatever?
for some reason the way ppl were 'protecting' themselves were by having themselves rolled up... in carpet? so they were all lined out outside... sitting in rolled up carpet |: I dunno why, but they were. [also seemed almost as if they were lying outside the Gitanmaax Hall in the village, though none of them were ppl I knew. And it's hard to not know someone in the villages.] I saw the wave of the explosion go over them. Watched the carpet sort of shrink and change in the energy that was rolling over it. so they looked more like cocoon's with the ends almost tapering into points. almost.

For whatever reason, they seem to sleep for many years. They didn't die, but go into some sort of hibernation?
They wake up 'in the future' and are trying to get out of their cocoon's.

Can't just break out of them. the casing is too though. how they didn't get covered in things or be moved I have no idea either.

some ppl are starting to get out, others are freaking out b/c they can't get out and such.
Then I notice a girl who seems like Lisa Simpson, though not cartoon form. I can't say it WAS her, but it felt similar to her.
She was telling everyone how they were suppose to get out. like, wiggling forward, not back. if you wiggle back you get stuck. Wiggling forward lets you get out and you come out head first, so I guess once your hands are free you can pull yourself out better?

I think the season was like late spring or early summer.

Everyone seems to finally get out. They are all gathering together, wondering about what everyone is going to do now. Some comment on how things seem different. How long were they in there? No one knows.

"Lisa" talks about how they can just eat such and such for now. she picks something up, but then seems confused, it's not what she thought it was, and makes a comment about how it's winter? suddenly everything is covered in snow, and she's... holding a belt made of snow? but the buckle part is still metal.

There seems to be a skip.

Suddenly I'm one of the ppl 'from the past'. I'm not exactly myself, but I'm not a random person either.
It's still winter, and I seem to have seperated from the others. I can't remember what was going on, but somehow I end up walking with some 'future ppl' along a roadside.
I think they all know each other. I only talk to the one guy though. He looks and sorta sounds like Eric Foreman from That 70's Show Only much taller. which is messed up if this is suppose to be the future. I dunno who the other guy is with us, but he has a serious expression and never talks, just keeps walking. He's also very tall. I never get a look at the woman traveling with us. She's shorter than me though, and I'm definatly not 5'11.5".

Eric has a rather pleasant disposition. He likes to joke and is friendly. It's erie, his smile and such reminds me of Brandon.
He doesn't seem to fazed about my story of being 'from the past' and such. I didn't tell him in detail, but he finds it more ammusing than anything, and seems just pleased for me to be traveling with him.

I dont' know where we are going, but we pass by a red sign with black lettering. Says something about Burger King ahead.
I told him even in the past I never went there much. Ask what they serve now. He suddenly seems a little more serious, just keeps walking forward, not even turning to look at me anymore. His expression seems somewhat pained with slight... something like confusion. Says something about how it's named Burger King. why would they serve anything but burgers?
Surprises me, they ONLY server burgers these days? NOTHING else at all?

I can't remember if this happens before or after the talk of Burger King, but Eric is smiling. I can tell what's going to happen. he's talking about something, but then seems to somehow get me to fall in the snow. He's run into me and we tumble over off to the side ofo the road and get tangled up in the snow together.
He's laughing, I'm somewhat amused. The other two (or was it three?) ppl we are with seem to just ignore us altogether. They don't seem to notice when we are walking with them or not. They just keep walking forward along the side of the road.

Eric and I untangle ourselves, he's still chuckling as we get up and rejoin our party.

It's fuzzy for me here, I dont' remember what happens between us walking and then us suddenly getting to and being inside "Burger King".
It's definately not the same at all.
It's a tall skinny building. We had to climb stairs on the outside to the top floor. It's only about the size of one room. It's also rather dark, but you can still see. I get the feeling of being in a... Silo/barn hybrid? seems the building is made of wood. unpainted wood most of the time? There is a counter like place on one side that we line up to. There is one woman on the other side. she makes our burger for us right there however we like out of the options she gives us.
I guess that's similar to Subway, but there is nothing in the way between her and I. If I wanted I guess I could reach over and touch the burger, but I don't.
She's making my burger, asks if I want bacon, I say yes. she puts it on, then some other things. they somehow the issue of me wanting some other kind of bacon comes up. It's strange... it looks almost exactly like regular bacon, but thicker, and there is something between/inside of it. She gives me a sad sort of smile. the kind you give a customer when they tell you something they probably should have before, so it's more work for you to change it or fix it.
But... she goes through with taking some things off my burger and replacing the other bacon with the 'new' bacon.
Eventually I get my burger.
I move over to the counter on the side, it's got other conidments and veggies lined along it? I guess you can add them to your meal/burger.
Bit more of a time skip. I think I'm now traveling in some sort of vehical with Eric? Are we with different ppl now? I can't tell, the dream is sort of falling apart. I think we are sitting on something and moving in a certain direction along [if not on the road], but I can still see everything on the side of the road (tress and vegitation) as if we were walking. We pass a sign I can't quite rememember, but it had an image on it of some sort. I seem suruprised and ask him something. I can still hear his voice, but things have gone dark.
All I see is an image of a bucket in front of me. Like the sort of bucket you get from KFC with food in it. but it's not from KFC. It's got an image on it I can't really describe well, but it's... some cartoony looking guy in an equally cartoony car (seems similar to a Mario Kart, but more car-like). I can't remember the brand/chain it's from. But there is a burger in the bottom of the bucket, and there are fries piled on top of it? Eric is telling that's how you get your food from such-and-such place.
Originally there was a mini bucket attached to the side, it also held a side of fries, but after a few moments of seeing the fries on the burger on top, it turned out to be holding a side of ketchup or something instead of more fries, and in a smaller container, much like those little cups you get for ketchup at McDonald's.
I make some sort of comment about the fries being on top OF the burger, he replies, but then I think that's about when I woke up.

Oh man I'm tired though... I told Sarah when I was still on dA (before starting this LJ entry) that I might lie down for a while. my left arm/hand is sore and tired. My head is also... lightheaded? I had only a few hours of sleep each time I went to work, and then got too much sleep last night [maybe 12 hours last night x_x]. so I don't feel 100% XD;
I am pretty hungry though, so I might try drag myself downstairs and get a bit to eat before lying down and listening to music for a while...

I just wrote this mostly for my dream before I forgot much more of it.

[ - orly? - ]

Wed, 28 Jan 2009 08:09:08 GMT

Huh... just logged onto My Space a while ago. Do friend requests just dissapear after a while now? I know I had one or t wo sitting in there for a while, but never did anything for them. When I logged in today they were gone |: [but I had a new one. Rejected of course].
Either that or I must've given a yes or no to them without realizing it.

*shrugs* oh well, it's not that important. I don't use My Space much anyway.
LOL just to talk to Ginny XD

Also, I just noticed where the number for my profile views are XD; right below my avatar and above my last log in date |D;
I got 2,555 views? LOL I like that number but... srsly, why so many?
Psh. I know there are ppl who'd brag about how they have millions of views or whatever, but rly. I don't even use My Space. I never talk to anyone, so I'm wondering how I got so many XD;

I'm still not sure if I wanna make my account private or not... I know it was private for a while. b/c I was on hiatus for the net in genearl for some time.
It WOULD help with my friends request issue... but I dunno.

BLARGH
still art block. I can't draw anything I really want to. they are all randomness. And I can never finish them or anything |D;

Also, got a long ass shift today. 11 hours mom said. HOLY SHEET.
that's gonna be a long day x_x;
I should actually get to sleep now then. I'm gonna need to be rested. I'm going to be moving stuph.

Don't think I had anything else to say... just needed to update |D;

[ - haaaaaaaa~! - ]

Tue, 20 Jan 2009 12:54:06 GMT

No, I don't really know what that's suppose to mean, but it came to mind XD;

sorta half-cleaned my room... picked stuph up off the floor... most of it moved to my bed XD; about half the floor was vacumed...

LOL good thing though, I found some things that'd been missing, or that I forgot about.
8D I found those edible tattoo's I wasn't sure if I'd sent to Ginny or not!
seems there is 60 in the box... D: I wanna keep some for myself... LOL
I can totally imagine putting them on myself just to eat them off myself XD

also found some of my cosplay and jewlery making things I was wondering the whereabouts of. And my 'design set' |D (just some art things, erases, charcoal, and pencils) was also dug up.
I found two heartshaped lockets that are the exact same...
but now I've forgotten what they were for T_T
I don't think I wrote it down anywhere either.
Don't think I found anything else significant though.

current playlist:
*Best Of You - Foo Fighters
*Over And Over - Three Days Grace
*Comatose - Skillet
*Tears Don't Fall - Bullet For My Valentine
*3's and 7's - Queens of the Stone Age
*Circus - Britaney Spears
*Clocks - Coldplay
*Your Guardian Angel - The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
*Untouched - The Veronicas
*Revenge is Sweeter (than you ever were) - The Veronicas
*Don't Trust Me - 3OH!3

I still want Startruckk by 3OH!3... but my album hasn't come in yet *sighs*
I listend to another song or two by them, but didn't love them as much as Don't Trust Me or Starstruckk

was actually able to scribble Seto and Jou today |D;
sadly I think Jou looks beter overall, except his eye? LOL and his hand/arm |D;

and the DVD I was using for ref is still in my comp |D
it's actually just paused in my VLC Media Player
on this:

somehow I seem to have remembered Jou on the right and Seto on the left for this part of the series...
but then that's not too surprising. I tend to remember things in a mirror image way. Mom even did that test on my from her psycology and found that out. She said she'd ask her instructor what that meant (if anything). But I don't remember what she told me they said.
And I don't really mean this particular image. I meant the one just before it, with the gust of wind that blew by...
none of you know what I'm talking about do you XD;
Well, it used to be the header of "If Looks Could Kill..." [the Seto vs. Jou fanlisiting]. But it's not only under new management now, but also the layout had to be redesigned b/c of the new firefox messing up or looking messed up with the old one I think?
And Seto's about three inches taller than Jou? really? LOL

Also, I know I've mentioned drawing Mich, Rene, Wallace, and Jovan as Zack, Tifa, Cloud, and Aeris [AC versions] before.
but I also wanted to draw Rene in Cloud's outfit, Jovan in Zack's, Mich in Aeris', and Wallace in Tifa's XD
There is a story there, but I don't feel up to typing it out atm.

Sorry, I can't remember what I dreamed about last night |D;

oh gawd.
It's so much work to clean off my bed... I'm tempted just to curl up on the floor |D;
Where the hell am I gonna put all this stuph? My room and closet were much bigger in the apartment...
I need a new system for my GN's... my YGO ones took up all the room on the shelf at the top of the stairs (that and my SJ issues)... so I just have the rest of my GN's sitting in my closet shelf where other things should probably be to take up less room |:

I really should set up my second desk too. That way I can start drawing on my huge sheets of paper |D
no way I'd be able to scan those things though. Guess I'd have to take pictures.

And I can't remember anything else I was going to say T_T;

Still feeling all emo though.

Also... I just realized it's Jou's b-day on the 25th XD
*was totally looking at his entry on the YGO wiki b/c of image she was sketching earlier*

Oh man... I'm tired though. I guess I'll be clearing off my bed to sleep some |D;

[ - Hmm... - ]

Fri, 16 Jan 2009 07:17:03 GMT

it's been a while since I used that user pic XD;

Well, Saturday is Wallace's b-day. He'll be 20.

We're going to Bear Country Inn for supper.
I was talking to him and asking him a few weeks ago about it.
He said Gordo's isn't around anymore (it was destroyed in the fire that also destroyed that old landmark hotel), and we can't go to Haryana's b/c Jose is the driver and he doesn't like East Indian Food. None of us really like Hot House (the East Indian food place that's in town), and the doesn't want to eat in a fast food place. He's always liked Bear Country, so I suggestivly [D< not in a marred way! I just didn't know a better way to describe it. kee you mind outta the gutter. this is my BROTHER I'm talking of |:] asked if that's where we'd go. I know I went to Lucky Garden a couple years ago because I like the tea and food there.

Also, got his prezzies today.
four plain t-shirts and mom got him a package of underwear XD
Yeah, he'd be unhappy with anything else |D
Do you know how hard it is to find plain t-shirts with no logo's or pockets? And in one solid colour?
He also only wears Kakhi pants. He refuses to wear anything with pleats, detests jeans, and despises sweat pants even more.
LOL mom was all, *sweatdrop* "and I thought you were difficult to shop for..." so I just laughed and sarcasticly replied back, "Yeah, aren't you glad you don't shop with Wallace?"
He is seriously picky. And VERY- uh... damn! I lost the word T_T
Things have to be the specific way he decides |D no more, no less.

Anyway, we were trying to go for something more practical for him this year. Not something electronic like always.

LAWL and no more prank gifts XD; he seems to be getting sick of those.

But hey, it's the only time we ever really play tricks on him. He pranks us all year round, we only really do it on ocassions involving gifts, genearlly speaking that would only usually be his b-day and Christmas.

He seems to have inherrited mom's seemingly unemotional nature, dad's habit of surpressing actual feelings, dad/granny's spitefulness, mom's usually serious nature, dad's affinity for pranks (but more in a mean way than a light-hearted one).
LOL
He can be nice though. It... just doesn't happen much |D;
He's also a very cheap person. A real penny pincher. He refuses to spend his money unless absolutley necessary.
He doesn't seem to have too much trouble having other people spend their money for him or on him. But he did confess to me once that he didn't like me always buying him things or paying for him all the time because it makes him feel a little guilty!
LAWL who knew he could feel guilty about that? He was serious though. I could tell.
It's kind of odd, but I seem to the be the only one who can acurately interperate him. Though I guess that's not TOO odd considering I practically raised him and we were usually always together.

At first sight no one is usually able to pick up on us being related in any way. I think they tend to wonder how in the hell we can even walk together anywhere XD;

I admit, I know we can be very opposite. Are a majority of the time. But that can be a real advantage. It works well for things we share or food wise. If there is a type of food in the house he likes that I don't, he can eat it all to himself without worrying about me wanting any. Same goes vise-versa.
If there is something we both like however... if we are feeling competitive that can be very bad for all those around us XD;
In genearal though we take the negotiation route and work out a schedule or something similar on how to split it.

So those who don't know us generally wonder how we can live with each other once they find out we are related or live together.
It's easy. Since we are so opposite things work out just fine~
We balance each other out, but there are also [obviously] things we agree on. And when we agree it's genearlly very strong. Just like when we disagree.

So I always found it a little strange. and it used to be irritating.
About other people I mean.
Wherever I would go (in old town or where ppl knew my brother or saw us together) I am always asked "Oh, Where's you brother?" or "where's Wallace?"
X3;;; Apparently he gets asked the exact same thing.

So we seem to be considered inseperable |D;

I don't really get it. How can there be two extremes like that?

Unlike with Fredrick/Ryan. LOL most ppl would assume he was my brother in high school. They'd talk about my bro, and I'd be surprised, "Oh, you know Wallace?"
"Wallace...? I was talking about Ryan, isn't he your brother?"
|D; "oh, no, he's just my cousin..."

>_>! And then there was that time he was mistaken for my boyfriend. Excuse me? No. I wouldn't date my cousin. Especially not a FIRST cousin!!!

He's like a brother though. We grew up together, mom pretty much raised him too |D

|3 and now there is Kris...

But yeah. Apparnetly my bro and I, we seem just like our parents XD
Though... I think much of the time I'm more like dad than Wallace is |D; And he's much more like mom most of the time. I guess some of the things we've said or argued about were the exact same as mom and dad too XD it always seems to send a shock through the Wale's |D;;;;

And somehow it seems people can recognize us for each family if they know the family. I know I look a lot like mom, but they also seem to easily tell I'm a Wale |D; and same goes for Wallace and being a Johnson?
I dunno.
It's as if we get a near-perfect balance from each side of the family |D

Also, our parents did seem to get along almost exactly the same as my bro and I XD
It makes me laugh X3

I dunno how many times I've said this but...
Rene does actually sort of remind me of my mom. Sort of. And Mich does sorta remind me of dad |D
and the way the get along sorta reminds me of my parents also XD
I say SORT OF!

I don't remember how I got that idea in my head, but it got there |D;
I also felt like I was more like Rene than Jovan |:
but looking at things from a different angle... I guess I can see how some people *coughKriscough* can relate me to Jovan.

I do find it a little funny how Kris seems a bit more like Wallace at times, and how my bro seems a bit more like Mich XD
on the surface and at first glace I suppose. But deep down I think they are more like the OC's I've created of them.

As a seeming general Rule for himself, Kris doesn't get close to others. He's usually quiet and distant to people he doesn't know, or just dosen't want to be close to. He doesn't hold much faith in humanity in actuality.

Wallace does have that spiteful streak to him. And he can be very mean and such. Though he can (and usually is) a very sensitive person. He can get really affected by certain things from another person. Though he doesn't generally show it outright, I know the signs since I've lived with him for so many years. I can read him very well.
Both of them are genearlly very withdrawn guys and don't like to be open.
But once you get to know them things get a little different. Mostly with Kris. He can almost seem to become someone else completly XD
Wallace however... he just seems to only change a little.

Uhm..... |D; what was the point of all this again?
I dunno, I just wanted to talk about Wallace I guess XP;;

I know I was going to say something about myself D: and.... it was relating to how I interact with others and forge relationships/bonds..
"OTL but I don't remember what it was I was going to say about it. Sorry! LAWL

D: dare I say I actually might've enjoyed Volume 8 of Ouran? mostly Episode 33 though |D of course. I just love hearing/reading more about Kyoya~
yeah, and Tamaki too XD
It's... sad, but funny |D;
how he seems to be unaware of his 'true' feelings (or whatever you call 'em) for Haruhi. T_T I feel for him! I really do |D
Mmm, and how it's implied (in my mind anyway) how Kyoya denies his feelings. Well, for Tamaki and Haruhi in general XD
OMG
I read some fan fics of Tamaki/Kyoya @ AFF |D
The one that was set a few years after graduation was nice~
The other one... it was entertaining. OOC and seemed mostly mindless smut, but entertaining in it's own way XD
I forget which chapter it was, but I also liked reading about Kyoya go to the 'commoners market' or whatever, and gets abandoned by the club after they litterly dragged him out of bed to come with them XD
This series seems to have almost no substance at all |D it's just all crack-like situations. It can be surpremely annoying, but it has rare moments I can like in some way.
LOL wow... it took eight GN's/Volumes before I started to get small entertainment out of the series XD;
Still not sure if I wanna see the anim though. the colours burn my eyes from screenies I've seen randomly here and there D: and oh the sparkles and flowers XD; I don't think my brain/eyes could take it.
Though... I barely lived through Geass... |D maybe I could try Ouran....

Of course you know I loved the bit of shirtless Kyoya seemingly about to take advantage of Haruhi XD I dunno what chapter that was from, but I remember it |3 the only thing I really liked about the past GN's I read before.

I was meaning to say it before but...
if what I heard was true about Haruhi NOT ending up with anyone of the boys cannonly... doesn't that seriously make the series pointless? I mean... isn't it in the romance genre? Isn't the whole point of a romance story for the main character (who I begrudingly admit is Haruhi) to end up with one of the love interests (of sorts) at the end?

That was one of the biggest issues I had with the series |D
"Why read it if there is no real conclusion? Nothing seems to ever happen in the series as far as I've read anyway... it all seems like a total utter waste of time."

LOL

I can't even remember what got me reading it again. I think it was a whim.
The GN's were off the shelf in the library for MONTHS. I don't even know how long, but it was many months XD;
So on impulse I grabbed the remaining GN's that I hadn't read yet and checked 'em out |D
I remeber reading four, but five wasn't there. So I just had to borrow six - ten. Not like anything ever really happens. So I figured if I missed out on five I wasn't actually missing out on anything! *smug about her chain of reasoning*

It's better than getting into reading more Naruto or Bleach anyway |D;
and I didn't really want it to be insulting, but it really seems to be a bad insult from my POV XD;;;

And now I've forgotten the reason-
oh no, nevermind. I remember XD
Wallace asked me one day (while he was watching Geass on TV thorugh his PSP) which Geass I liked better. The first or R2.
I dunno. I thought the both sucked. I dunno which I felt sucked less. There were things about each I hated a lot. I'd have to watch them ALL over again to try pick it out |D;;;;
orz
So I may torture myself further and try go through that series AGAIN.
Think Suzaku Aisu. Suzaku!

And...
and...!
those AMV's keep making me wish I could draw Seto xD
but I don't know how D: I don't know how I want/need to draw him ;____;
My previous itch of not knowing how to draw another certain chacter seems to have been replaced with Seto now XD
But that song |D; for my poll...
Yeah. Over and Over by 3 Days Grace seems like something I can apply to Seto.
I dunno what it is.
LOL and I [maybe only half-]jokingly apply Toxic to him as well XD;

But I seem to go through periods of damned loving Seto to DEATH. And then it just seems to get lost in my life for a while, then BAM comes back again |D;
And it's almost always like falling for him for the first time again XD;
wtf? He's fictional. I don't get it. why?
WRYYYYYYY!

Well, I'd like to think it's not in a really REALLY fangirly way.
It's not like I want to change my name to Kaiba or something like that.
There is just SO damn much about him that I admire. ~</3

He just makes me happy... and yet he can pull me down and make me feel bad to |D;
Though more happy. Usually being happy is what pulls me down XD;;;
Does that make any sense at all? No? Sorry, I don't fully understand it myself.

Mmmm
speaking of things I love~
Arbiter is sitting on my tower right next to my monitor XD [well, technically it's Wallace's, but I'm using it atm].
And I'm sitting here admiring him and forgot why the hell I mentioned that in the first place XD;

D: I've always found Sableye cute and adorable though. Pidge, you surprised me when you said you thought it was ugly!
LOL I always thought it was cute XD;
But then I've come to realize and accept that my view(s) tend to be skewed from those I know or those around me "OTL

D: That reminds me of what I was thinking before...
I find Shinx to be utterly adorable. And I LOVE Luxray |D
but... I find Luxio to be rather unattractive XD; I don't like it *sniff* I'm sorry TAT

and lawl whut?
I'm pretty sure now that I have ppl who vote in my polls who don't like me XD;
I've done mental tallies and comparisons... there are usually two votes for really negative answers |D; EVERY TIME.
Are they watchers? If so, do they just enjoy doing a rather anonymous form of flaming?
It does bother me a little more than it probably should. But not A LOT.

which reminds me of something I randomly [I say randomly b/c I don't remember why I remembered earlier today] about Em. The cousin dad would call my 'shadow'. The one who'd follow me around and I'd be held responsible for at all times no matter what.
I really despise a lot of the things she does and says and how she thinks. [in some cases it's more her lack of thought or common sense rather thanher malicious or self-absorbed behaviour.]
But what came to mind anyway [before I go off naming other incidents that got under my skin], was about how she told me her and one of her girl friends would have a blast randomly reporting ppl on Neopets. Just because they were bored and found it funny to get ppl banned for no reason at all and b/c they didn't know them |:
I'm thinking that came to mind along a tangent that had to relate to Carlos and the old sk, likely following on the heels of some of the idiots of dA. [Incident's I've read about in journal's recently.]

Ah well, I don't really have anything else to say at |D; and this jouranl is full of more lovely LJ cuts 8D;

[ - .............. - ]

Wed, 14 Jan 2009 05:17:09 GMT

seriously. just "................"

Catholic funerals... are weird.
But then most anyone would say that about something they've never seen or been to before, right?

I"ve been remembering random things about dreams here and there recently. I think I'm thinking too much again. [the following is not one of those I've begun to remember pieces of, but a recent one]

Had a dream I can't remember too well. Had something to do with Wallace, Mich, Rene... and maybe even Jovan somehow? I don't know.

Somehow Rene... convinces Wallace to have sex with her |D I dunno how that happened anymore. but Wallace was pretty damned hesitant, but she was VERY persistant.
Something about Wallace not wanting to because of her history with Mich. Mich still feels something for her? Doesn't she still feel for him? She says something about how she feel in love with Wallace now.

Not sure how it happens. but Wallace gets killed |D;
He... trades his soul for the salvation of one of the other girls? I don't know, something like that. He made a deal that it doesn't matter what they [can't remember who the "they" are] do to him, as long as so-and-so is fine/alright/untouched/whatever.

His body is in some dark place, he's got his hands bound up above his head, not together at the wrists though, they are sorta spread apart, past his shoulders to each side.

I think he was killed (or died) from something screwing him through his chest... while he was having sex with Rene?
Yes, that sounds like what had happened.
He's being... punished. He shouldn't have done that?
Technically speaking it didn't go on for long before he was scewered. does it still count as him being deflowered if they weren't finished? neither "they" or Wallace seem to take that into consideration, but I start to wonder about it myself [as I "watch" the dream].

Not sure if one of the girls (Rene? Jovan?) seems to find him first. or if it's Micheal. Whoever it is who finds him, they place the palm of their hand on his cheek, but he turns away, not looking at them. Can't quite remember what he says. But his voice is quiet... remorseful? something else I can't quite pinpoint.

When he seems Micheal stand in front of him after so-and-so... leaves? dissapears?
He sort of forces out a smile. Tinged in sadness and like scoffing at himself? Says something about how, Yes, it's true what he heard. He did sleep with Rene. He... sort of regrets it. Didn't want to hurt Micheal. But that can't be helped now. Doesn't mention a thing about how he was hesitant to do so from the start, or how Rene coerced him into it. Thinking about it briefly.

Sometime while he's talking to both Micheal and whoever else it was, he mentions how they're torturing him further, making him see illusions of the people he knows, and confronting them. Stops himself short of calling them his friends. Much like he would when he was younger. but not with contempt like back then, with something else more like regret. As if he doesn't want to defile them by even saying they are related to him through friendship. As if he doesn't deserve it.

Flashing through Wallace's mind are random memories of when "they" were making illusions of his friends and making him confront them, see them, etc. So he's unbelieving of so-and-so or Micheal actually being there. Still believing they are illusions, but still seeming to talk to them [half the time] as if they are who they are. Maybe more to please "them" so they don't think of something else/worse to torture him with.

But his spirit/soul can't seem to stand the pain and angst and suffering much more. He's starting to fade away even from here.

Micheal and so-and-so had come to this strange plane of existance to "Bring Wallace back". Don't know how they knew where he was or how to get there. But they did.

They didn't expect him to be in such a state as he was when they found him though.
Seems to be breaking down after seeing Micheal though. His resolve is fading fast and he's giving up. He just wants to fade away and dissapear now, rather than be punished further. So his exisistance in the strange realm he is in is beginning to fade.

Micheal notices the change in Wallace. What he can see of Wallace seems even more weak than it was before, though he never imagined that possible. He can see the hoplessness on his friends face, somehow he can see the life-force fading out of him.

He's getting anxious. Quickly tries talking to Wallace. Who mutters a reply back about how he knows what he's done can't and shouldn't be foregiven. Is he reffering to more than just the incident with Rene? May be. Not sure though.
Micheal's grabed Wallace... his face, he's trying desperately to talk to him, get through to him. Resorts to desperately saying he forgives Wallace?
If Wallace could, he'd shake his head, "No, it's alright Micheal. Like with Rene I don't need you to lie to me like that. You shouldn't be capable of forgiving me. You especially..."
A Second time Micheal is holding Wallace as he 'dies'/fades off. Not quite crying, but who can tell with Micheal? I can't see his face/expression. Never really could. He's obviously distraught though.
Somehow I begin to get memories of Micheal's? Him with his parents. Then finding out they disspeared in the mountians. They're dead. Him confessing his feelings for Rene. To her. But then shutting her out. Moreso after they consumate their feelings for each other. He tries to justify it as not wanting to lose her. "You can't lose what you don't have." he's touching her face with the tips of his fingers, brushing some of the locks of her hair. Unsure of if she knows exactly what he's reffering to. But she's on the verge of tears, mixed emotions on her face, she semi-throws herself into his chest, cluthing his shirt (or jacket?) mostly sobbing into his clothes, "You've never lost me. I've always been yours..." Micheal thinks back on how that's not exactly what he meant. He just doesn't want to lose her in the future. So if he denies her now, that can't happen. Denying her is like denying a part of himself. He's living life almost half-dead. Life carries little to no meaning after locking away a part of himself.
He never realized, not fully, how much Wallace meant to him until now. Maybe a little when he left, but not when he knew for sure Wallace was gone. He can't stand when this happens. He was never able to cope with it before. And now isn't any easier. If not just harder.

whew... writing all that out was exhausting. I had a few other things to say... but now I'm too drained to remember them |D;

Attended a Catholic funeral today. For Ernesto Carerrio. Mom's boyfriends father.
Yes, it felt weird. Didn't take as long as I thought though. The 'lunch' thing afterwards almost reminded me of a feast. Not really though. Our feasts are much more structured with semi-rigid 'rules' of conduct/procedure.

Also hastily typed out something for after WD. Wallace's father gets a hold of Wallace after he comes back from being gone for about 2 years. Yes, this needs major smoothing out, but this was just an idea that struck me and I had to write it out asap so I wouldn't forget the basics. May or may not develop it furhter. I had scribbled a few words of it down in AIM with Pidge some time back, but it was hardly a conversation. More like random lines from Wallace where you had to imagine his father's replies or questions.

Dad: "I'm trying to reach Wallace -last name here-."
Wallace: "F-father...?!"
Dad: "Ah, so this is you then is it?"
Wallace: *shocked* "Yes... it is..."
Dad: "You're 19 now and I've been trying to get a hold of you since your 16th [or fifteenth?] birthday... care to tell me what you could have possibly been doing?"
Wallace: "Well... uh... why do you care anyway?! I told you I was leaving didn't I? That you didn't have to worry about me coming back. =.=; So forgive me Father, but why should you bother now?"
Dad: "Well, Wallace, I assumed you were acting like the childish kid you were. I waited a few years and when you didn't return home like I expected you to, that's when I decided to try get a hold of you. But I was unable to get a hold of you anywhere I was able to track your progress from, and no one I did happen to get a hold of knew where you were."
[I could see them arguing back and forth (his dad remaining calm and Wallace steadily irritated) forever until his dad tells him to come back.... for his mother's sake |D;]
Dad: "Well, I had been hoping you would have matured while you were away. Seems that was still too much to hope for"
Wallace: "!!!!!" *about ready to reply, but is interrupted*
Dad: "Never-the-less. You need to come home. Your mother will be returning shortly. You'd better pay her a visit after being gone for so long. I'll set something up with the shipping company in Sinnoh so you can get here quickly and efficiently."
Wallace: "............."
[not sure yet exactly what I'll be putting here, but there will be something?]
Wallace: "Father... what about my friends...? How will they-"
Dad: "You have friends?"
Wallace: =_=# "Yes. I have friends, father."
Dad: "You mean other than Hoops?"
Wallace: *grits his teeth* "Of course other than Hoops! I'm sure Gwyn won't want to-"
Dad: "Do you mean Gwyn Price of Hoenn?"
Wallace: "Would you let me finish any of my sentences?!"
Dad: "How close exactly are you with Miss Price?"
Wallace: "I don't see how that has any relevance! She's my friend okay! What, is this an interrogation now?!"
Dad: "Well, it just seems surprising that you could make 'friends' with someone of Miss Price's social standing without my help."
Wallace: "Her social standing has nothing to do with our friendship! I know Lita and Steven are also from wealthy families but it is not the reason we are friends! They know next to nothing about my family-"
Dad: "Could you possibley mean Steven Stone? Oh my, Wallace, you do seem to have some worth while friends. Are they all coming back with you?"
Wallace: *face palms and sighs before muttering* "I wouldn't be able to stop Gwyn even if I wanted to. And it's not like I want to go back in the first place..."
Dad: "How is it you could become friends if they don't know of your lineage?"
Wallace: "Like I told you, it has NOTHING to do with that. Steven and I share our interest in rare stones and mining. Gwyn... well, she's just herself."
Dad: "And you mentioned Lita... would that be Mrs. Volair's daughter Lita?"
Wallace: *exhasperated sigh* "Father! I don't think they have to worry too much on how to get there. I was more worried about Micheal and Jovan."
Dad: "Hmm... those names don't sound too familiar"
Wallace: "=.=# I didn't think they would."
Dad: "Who are their families? Parents? Guardians?"
Wallace: "Well, Micheal is from Pallet Town, he seems to be friends of sorts with Proffessor Oak. Jovan is from Viridian City, also in Kanto- Hey, why do I even need to explain this?"
Dad: "Well, if they can afford it I suppose they can come along..."
Wallace: "That's exactly why I was worried about them being able to make it back!"
Dad: "Oh. Well then don't bother bringing them. I'd rather you not be hanging around with riff-raff. Especially if you already have friends in high regard."
Wallace: "I'm not just going to up and abandon them-" *stops and pauses to think about what he just said*
Dad: "What? It seems you are cutting yourself off now. Did you pick up that habit from those less fortunate that you degrade yourself by being around?"
Wallace: *really starting to get angry* "Don't talk about my best friends like that! If they aren't coming back with me I'm not going back at all!" *hangs up*
Dad: *blinks, rather shocked* "Well. His childish behaviour seems to have gotten worse. He also seems to have developed anger managment issues..." *shakes his head* "This is going to take a lot of work to iron out. I was hoping his travels would build some character but..." *sighs*

time for random!

Stamp by =YamiNoMitsukai on deviant ART

Yeah... I dunno. somehow that made me think of Wallace XD; and... Micheal? LOL I dunno |D but I can imagine that being said about Wallace somehow.

I do imagine that once Wallace has some experience though, he does get.... what's the word...
Well, more... appreciative(?) of sex in genearl. But he'll not really get to a point where it's something he can just want to cassually drop in an out of a conversation |D *coughunlikeMichcough*
He'll be more of a "seme-type" once he's had some experience, and after WD of course.

LOL I could probably go on and on, probably traveling off on some tangents as well, with this subject, but I don't think I will this time.

Ah, but I finally watched Akira. Yes, late the the party, I know. I actually liked it. Though the dubbing/lip syncing did sort of throw me off |D
Wallace didn't seem to understand it, and called the ending "anti-climactic" XD; I liked it though. It was interesting.
Too bad a section of it on the tape was sorta cut out b/c the VHS went wonky on me for a bit D: don't think I missed too much at that particular section though.
I miss animation like that. Sure it could be a little wonky and strange sometimes. But I still like it <3

And I can't remember how I got into it... but I ended up going to this one site and reading up random things about sue's and things related to that |D
It really was entertaining <3
And I'm wondering about taking a litmus test for my pkmn OC's XD;
No, it won't affect me to changing them. And I know those aren't always 100% on being for sure that the character is a sue XD [or Stu for males].

OH GAWD
but that does remind me of my self-linflicted torture |D;
I'm trying to read Ouran >_>; yes, I'm forcing myself to finish the manga. I really don't want to watch the anime. Not right now anyway. And I already got spoilers about it ages ago |D; and I heard Haruhi doesn't end up with anyone cannonly.
I'm not sure if I feel good or bad about it. I don't like her really. And I don't really like her paired with anyone. Well, maybe I do have a bit of a soft spot for Tamaki x Haruhi. After running across some ouran shounen-ai douijins... I did start more of a liking for Kyoya/Tamaki |D;
I've never really developed much of a liking for the twins or hunny though. I guess I do sorta like Mori. But I really like Kyoya |D and I guess I can't help but like Tamaki MOST of the time. I really don't like the series in genearl though. Nothing about the so-called storyline catches my interest. and any of the events usually don't entertain me either |D; I mostly just like Kyoya and the occassional bits of Tamaki, or hints to Tamaki x Haruhi, Kyoya/Tamaki, or even Kyoya x Haruhi XD;
The art style is hard on me, very hard XD; so I don't think I could handle the anime with it's colours >_>; black and white is fine for me. I sorta liked the Vampire Knight anime more b/c of the colours, and the art style seemed different enough from the manga for me to be able to not wanna vomit as often XD (also, I just love Zero... there I said it).
But LAWL I guess Umehito from Ouran can be entertaining also.
I can't remember who exactly it was (I think it might've been Nina? No wait, I think it was Amy) but someone told me the Ouran anime was WAY better than the manga |D;
But in genearl I prefer manga over anime. and I think she's opposite and prefers anime to manga.

Well, I've run out of things to say again |D; so I'll just leave a link to a puppyshipping vid I've run across rather recently and liked:
www.youtube.com/watch
I want that song [again] D:

[ - Gomen ne! - ]

Sat, 10 Jan 2009 17:05:41 GMT

lol yesh, I haven't quite been enough of a weebo recently have I? 8D;

but yeah, sorry everyone who cares even slightly!
Yeah, felt like shit for the past few days, neh? stupid monthy :|

hopefully I can get back on track.
and I got my paperwork done up |D
as long as it goes through We (and by we I mean me) should have LESS problems 8D;

I do wanna draw Mich. I really do. I feel as if I can... er... most of the time.
but when I DO start drawing him... I either get distracted or lazy |D; and can't keep doing what I intended to do... >_>;

Wallace is still being a jerk and won't let me draw him D<

speaking of jerks...
Hoops is being a royal ass.
He's SO pissing me off atm. It's unbelievable.
I think I better just not talk about it |D;

got to chat to Alun for a bit, but not long. we were in the middle of a convo and he logs out on me and never comes back =.=#

but on another note...
I found my glittery hello kitty christmas stickers =D;

and I'm torn! the game is already about a week late... I dunno if I should just migrate everyone over, or keep working towards facing Steven the champion...
I think I have six of the bages now.

<3333 Micheal is one of my most awesome pkmn! why didn't I ever train a Torkoal before? they rawk |D
Of course, Rene is good too. but Micheal is who got me past Flannery, basically just himself XD
Aaron my Aron (yeah yeah, I know, but it's the first name that came to mind XD I was thinking about my old friend Aaron from high school) is one of my best too. it's so hard rotating my pkmn enough to keep them all about the same level D=
so whenever I face a gym leader I'm always far out leveled. ALWAYS. |D;;;

Of course I win, but it's not as quick and easy as I'm used to. I guess if I specialiized in one team or one pkmn it'd be faster, but it's not like I usually have too much trouble. I can still just send out one pkmn to train, recall it, then send out another one that'll take it out.
I guess I'm just used to getting critical hits or one-hit KO's more often |D
I do seem to have a high ammount of luck though. *shrugs*

OMFG stupid Solrock...
they are hard for me to find in the cave at the falls... and when I do my pkmn always do too much damage and knock it out XD; even if it's not an accidental one hit KO due to a critical that I don't expect (or really want atm) if I get it close to low enough, like low in the yellow or still sorta high in the red, it still breaks free... should I try using a great ball instead? I like to use pokeballs b/c I collect premier balls |D; so I always buy pokeballs in sets of 10 when I buy them. and I noticed in Diamond that my pokeballs had a higher sucess rate of capture than ANY other ball |D; which never made too much sense to me.
The only reason I used up my premier balls and great balls (and friggen ultraballs) before was b/c I ran out of my pokeballs and was no where near town to buy more D:
and the damned things didn't get caught anyway |:

I really don't want to catch a spinda... I hate those things. but I'll have to for the Pokédex XD;

I have Zangoose... but I want Seviper too |D;

At least I have the go-go goggles- Oh sheet! i have the go-go goggles XD; I forgot...
I HAVE to catch a Trapinch 8D; that way I can get flygon |D;;;
D: and I need to train my Skarmory and Mawile...
At least Wallace is a Mightyena though <3333 he's pretty good now. but he was pretty useless as a Poochyena |D; it was SO hard training him since he was part of my main team. I picked hard pkmn to do well with in battles I think XD; they get good, but only after a lot of training |D;
so much so that I had to put off training Ramen my Magikarp D: believe it or not he's still not evolved yet |D
[his name was choosen by Wallace btw]
I NEED an Absol though. And I know it's not an ice type, but I want FanGirl to have one ~<3

Yeah, I'm going to give Wallace a Spiritomb also X3
he happens to like ghost types. More from influence from his father |D; he'd bring Wallace over to Ecruteak City and Sprout Tower in Violet City. If that doesn't make any sense to you XD; I guess that's okay, it's more for me anyway.
Also, he does give a Spiritomb to Lita. it takes a lot of work to get one, so why wouldn't he get one for himself while he's at it?
I did make it so that he owns a Haunter though. for sure.
lol I'm not sure if I should make him have a Sableye or not. I think I probably will. They eat stones, and it'd be easy for him to 'attract' one. And if he captures ones, it'd be easier to control, and he could also prolly use it to ward off other Sableye, from trying to eat his stones and such. They also tend to be lonely pkmn b/c they are in caves all the time. Wallace is in a cave very often xD so they can keep each other company |D
Wallace does also have Noctowl though. He'd used a Hoothoot early on in his journey. And I made it so he catches a wild Yanma too.
I remember my bro randomly saying one day that Wallace has a Venomoth XD
Though, with him being a miner... he'd likely have a few steel types as well? and probably some ground types?

Jovan will have a wide array of types XD she's not really all that picky. And her profession is studying the moves a pkmn uses in battle and such. So she'd need a wide array to work with. One of her favorites (if she's to have one) would have to be her Gyarados though.
And I was thinking one of the reasons she could start leaving Pikachu with Prof. Oak after her first few years of traveling with it could not ONLY be so that he could study it, but also b/c she doesn't want it to accidently come across a thunderstone of Wallace's and evolve |D;

and on a non-pkmn note [because I relize I've been going on and on about it for a while now XD;]
I want Final Fantasy Dissidia D: but it's not suppose to be released to North America till about mid-year?
LOL hopefully that means in Canada we'll get it about the same time as the American's |D;
Of course, the character I wanna play most is Squall XD; prolly try out cloud for the hell of it |:
I don't wanna play as Tidus T_T
Firion might be fun 8D he was from FF II after all. And I'd have to see what Warrior of Light is like. From the original/first Final Fantasy. b/c... yeah, if you don't know the first I dunno what to say about it XD it's still my fav.
8D; and guess what! the FF Battle Theme [OC Remix] is playing for me atm |3

Wallace is most excited for Kuja. he was one of the big baddies in IX. I wanna face Ultimecia again! LOL yes, that's VIII |D but yeah, facing Sephy should be fun too. I do wonder how it'd be to face Garland though. Big baddie from Original FF.

I would like to try out Cecil though! he's from FF IV ~<3 Apparently he can transform between his Dark Knight and Paladin forms 8D!
Hee hee~
and you can put Squall in his SeeD uniform as an alternate outfit XD they all get alternates~

Well, I dunno what else I can say, so I think I'll end it here X3
though |D; I'll likely remember a million other things I wanted to put here, could put here, or should've put here after I submit. Always happens, neh?

[ - Nuuuuuuu! - ]

Wed, 31 Dec 2008 12:32:52 GMT

LAWL whut?

OTL Okay, now I remember why I don't like to get into relationships. I have horrid sense on the ppl who I choose.

My husband is a girly man.

I don't like pretty boys that are just eye candy D: [he's cute, so he says, I don't remember seeing a photo of him XD but his random pics are entertaining, even if they tended to be crack of him and his sis. I liked his design in our wedding pic]
At least he's emotionally strong enough for me.

.....

so far |D

Like I was telling Kiko-chan. I need a guy who won't break on me. I tend to be rough, even if I consider it gentle.

LOL I guess he's aloof enough for me though? We almost never talk. EVER.

I never see him anymore.
Haven't for ages. Not since soon after we 'married' at the end of summer? XD;;;;
the last comment I got from him was barely substantial |D;

Aaaaand...
I finally just straight out turned down XIII today, last night... whatever!

No, I just don't see getting into a relationship with him.

And I know you can't see this Hoops...

but fuck you too.

There is no way I'm getting into a relationship with you either.

I might unblock you from MSN soon. But be glad I accepted you as my friend on My Space.

And no, Hoops is not the person I was reffering to in my last LJ.

I had that dream again. Well, a couple times.
about rescuing, saving, taking the fall/hit/blow for her. Most of the time she's not grateful. not that I'm surprised. It's always been that way. I save your ass, you get pissy.

You ask me why? You ask me why I save you? [in that shocked/surpirsed yet also pissed off tone. Of course. That's par for the course. And only you can make me use terrible phrases like that b/c I still relate you to a certan someone even if you two are nothing alike anymore.]
Why do you need to ask? If you don't know it's useless to explain.

I just got deja vu about that... have I typed it before? It feels as if I had. Maybe at another blog of mine?

A few days or so ago, I was so fired up to make up a list of things I hate about a certain someone. Yes. things I hate about them. I don't totally hate them. But there is SO much about them I don't like at all. That annoy the hell outta me. You know?
But I dropped that idea. [lol makes me remember that song by 3 Days Grace]

I'm so glad Ginny is back though ~<3
hopefully we'll be able to get together to battle on the Wii and/or DS.
she far out levels me with her lv. 100's team, but hope it'll be fun anyway. She did use rare candies after all.

I suddenly feel compelled to list the songs in my current iTunes Playlsit XD

*Flattery - Aly & AJ
*Circus - Britney Spears
*Hotel California - Eagles
*Inside Of You - Hoobastank
*I Write Sins Not Tragedies - P!@TD
*Love Song - Sara... whatever-whatever
*Comatose - Skillet
*The Other Man - Sloan
*Untouched - The Veronicas
*Revenge Is Sweeter (Than You Ever Were) - The Veronicas
*Make A Man Out Of You [Team Four Start version]

that's what's on my 01 playlist. Yes, that's the name of the playlist.

lol and I finally figured out how to fix the language settings back for my keyboard when I mess it up by hitting the shortcuts by mistake XD
I know, I should've looked it up or something YEARS ago, but I finally did now.
Before this I'd just close the whole program and then open it up again, or re-log in. Yes, tedious and such I know.

I've not felt too good today. I just... dunno. Kept saying mean things and what not XD; and I dunno why.

Jch was saying it was probably just a bad day.

but I've been feeling pretty bitchy most of the day... |:

Haven't actually seen too much of Wallace. That's amazing.
LOL last I remember he was watching Coronation Street downstairs on CBC.

and to clear things up Kiko-chan. Don't go picturing Wallace glued to the TV watching soaps XD; it's not true. He's usually on his comp, and he only seems to watch Coronation Street. I dunno what Little Mosque on the Prarie is considered though, but he likes that one too. [I admit to liking it, but my loyalty to watching the new eps pales in comparison to his.] He also likes to watch the comedy shows with me though. 22 Minutes, Air Farce, and Just For Laughs. I don't like Just For Laughs: Gags though. [We watch South Park on-line. and he went through a marathon of watching seasons of Corner Gas XD]

But yeah, I'm pretty sure he'd be at home watching Soaps with mom while i was out with dad at fire fighting practice, dad's house building, or other such things.
He was always closer to mom than me. And I was always closer to dad. Though I've gotten closer to mom after all these years of living with her since I was like... what? 13-14?
[remind me to scan and show you that pic of lil!Wallace and Grandpa Fred Pidge]

Also, Sarah caught my kiriban, but she doesn't know what to get me to draw for her XD

I think this happened before.... didn't she catch it before, but she gave away her request?
I know someone did, they gave it to Jch. And Jch got me to draw the Club ID for Richie Realm.

|D; but I still haven't drawn ForeverHyper's Puppyshipping kiriban. and I still have Lili's shirtless Priest Seto and Shirless Pharoah Atem prize to draw for winning Richie Realms last contest.

And why have I had this sudden urge to get tons of luxray and shinx things over the past few weeks?

But all in all today was.... VERY busy.

LOL I went to the library to return a book and embarrass myself about asking for a book that I reserved that wasn't in yet XD

I also renewed Ruby-
And totally forgot I bought two 'new' VHS!
LOL they are not new per say... but new to me? They are old stock Video Stop is trying to rid their shelves of. They don't want any more VHS. so their final sale is 99 cents each and buy one get one free.
I actually found AKIRA there. Why did no one else buy it yet? All the good anime was snatched up right away.
Terrace has a small unknown pocket of anime fans. None of us ever see each other, but we see traces of each other to know they exist as competition.

Oh, and I got a volume of YGO DK eps XD the dub yesh |D
the ones with Haga <3
LOL or should I say Weevil XD

holy crap! it's already almost 20 after four am? LOL I'm starting to feel better |D; not as angry/emo a mood...
I am still considering going over to Husky though |D

but who was the genius who drank all the filtererd water in the fridge and never onced considered adding more |:
there are LITERS that fit in that jug. And I had it almost filled when I refilled it after having gotten close to the last few glasses.

and the like... nine pairs of socks I got from overprice value village in PG don't fit D<
they were suppose to be like size 9-11... but they don't stretch as much as I thought, so I can't put them on XD;
and they were my favorite kind... knee-highs....
Yes. I like Knee-highs. STFU.

And I love Flattery [by Aly & AJ] for the Love Triangles that involve Mich and Rene |D (mostly just Mich/Rene with hints at Mich/Wal, and the trinagle that is Mich/Rene + Fred, or even Fred/Rene + Mich) it feels like such a short song D:

Also, when I was looking for the b-day vid I made for Ginny to show Sarah... If ind it was removed from dA for copyright violation |:
must've been reported for the music. I drew all [I think?] the images I used in it. LOL and even did the crap animation that was included in it XD

well, it's almost 4:30 now. I'm still considering going over to Husky. I tried going to bed last night at about this time or even earlier... but it didn't work. so I ended up staying up and playing some FF II [until like 8:15 am]. Though, it was just a waste of battery life b/c I was in that special dungeon... lol and then my party died |D;

And since I've been playing FF II so much. I've considered trying to draw the characters. Though, I'd have to look and see if there are any references of them on-line for me to look at for the details. Or, even if someone uploaded the scene at the start of the game before the title screen.
LOL you won't believe the oufit 'Jovan' is wearing XD I seriously did consider naming her Rene instead. Or maybe even Lucy. but she doesn't seem to have that type of personality. Not that Jovan fits any better. Hell, Steve doesn't fit that character either. but I just figured having Walt, Steve, and Jovan traveling together made the most sense. I'd have named her FanGirl... but she doesn't have a solid name yet, and calling her FanGirl... it would annoy me to see that every time someone says her name in the game |D;

so yeah, I feel better than I did when I started this entry XD; ttyl, I think I should be getting off the comp about now |D;

[ - Ready A Room At The Hotel California~ - ]

Sun, 28 Dec 2008 11:25:06 GMT

lawl scribbling Rene related/centric images today. Helped cheer me up? I dunno, it was fun. Scribbling Mich usually calms me down but also makes me feel better XD

pretty sure I had an odd dream... but can't remember it atm.
LAWL I think I liked volume one of Pretty Face a bit more than the second XD; even if I bought the second for myself, but gave the first one to Wallace for Christmas.

Still need to draw Rene in that pantsuit XD jonjayray.googlepages.com/dress.jpg/dress-full.jpg

I know I had a lot to say >_> but now I can't think of it... ;_;
been reading my new issue of Yen+Plus XD Told mom I should prolly just subscribe. I buy it every month I can XD
though I need to re-new my subscription to SJ as well...

Also had the idea of drawing Mich looking.... really angry. No fo' srs. I mean REALLY angry XD;;;;
Angry enough to scare Wallace (and Jovan?) and confuse Rene XD;

Something that came to mind:
Mich asks Rene something.
She repiles with something about or related to Fredrick.
Silence.
MIch starts looking angry. Rene raises and eyebrow, her arms folded across her chest.
Mich yells Fredrick's name, clenching a fist chest high, the other clenced at his side as he starts turning away from Rene.
Wallace hides behind Rene from Mich and Rene just keeps the single eyebrow raised with her arms folded, one hip out to the side as she looks rather confused.

LOLOLOL I dunno.
but in the middle of typing that Wallace came into my room and wanted to duel D<
LAWL so I dueled him and lost horridly OTL like always...

I really can't remember anything else I was going to say. But reading Volume 2 of Pretty Face reminded me of some dreams I had before. The one I can still recall atm... is impossible for me to explain XD; it has to do with me/whoever I was in some... large cylindrial pit thing with holes and non-smooth edges.... and sand or water coming out of it? I cant properly explain it. Really, I just can't XD

I have other Rene and Mich images I wanna draw.

I don't think I've told anyone of this?
Mich/Jovan vs Wallace/Fangirl [Char/Suigetsu vs Steve/Froslass]
But also, need to draw Rene vs Mich [Saur vs Char]
And Little!Wallace vs Teenage!Mich [Quilava vs ???]
Wallace would want to face Char. But Mich would likely deny him XD and even if he did accept that for some reason, I don't think Char would fight Quilava XD; he'd see it as being weaker than he is. And Charizard don't spit flames at weaker opponents. so maybe it'd be more Little!Wallace and Quilava Challenging Mich and Char |D

This reminded me about trying to draw Wallace and his pkmn. And even had me thinking of drawing Mich and some of his team? daniel-link.deviantart.com/art/Im-a-Pokemon-Trainer-104876506

and lol I liked this one XD blackitsune.deviantart.com/art/Another-meme-78706555

yeah... ben browisn' dA while this was left open |D;
*sighs* dunno what else to put here atm. Might scribble more before going to sleep. or not. unsure yet. but ttyl~

[ - sighs - ]

Sat, 27 Dec 2008 10:32:59 GMT

Yeah, whatever. |D

I miss Kiko-chan, but I never really know what to say XD;
so I either get all emo, or uber random? o_o;;;

And I'm really started to get worried, and slightly uncomfortable with XIII...
I did the easy thing and ran away on him on IM XD; so sorry if anyone was on-line but didn't see me on MSN. I usually keep my AIM on though.

I also had a rather nice dream of Mich... some time ago.

He was just lying on his back, on what I dunno. but I just started lying down on top of him, pressing the palms of my hand and cheeck against his chest.
It made me feel safe, calm, and... happy? I'm not sure. But it gave me that warm sort of feeling.More so when I felt his arms go around me. And one started to pet my head while the other rested on my back.
I remember snuggling into him, maybe moving my hands a little. just lightly feeling his chest through his shirt. Not intended to be in a sexual manner.
Yesh. It was platonic. Is it so weird that I can do that sort of thing with someone and not have it have sexual undertones?

Though, it was starting to slip away from me, I think I remember moving up, still pressing my body against his as I either rested my hands on his shoulders or placed them on each side of his head, let me eyes slip closed, and pressed my lips against his mouth. He actually didn't seem to have a cig in it at the time. Yeah, weird huh?

Helped mellow me out though. I was all... well not calm XD;

guess I just reveled in the semi-darkness, and half-awareness of the dream with Mich. I can't really remember the rest of the dream because it seemed to almost be 'playing' in the back of my mind, or I was just resting in the back of my mind while it was still happnening in another part that was still within 'viewing distance' but not quite close enough.
All I really remember is that he was somewhat hesitant to respond to my advances. But I kept pressing on so he gave in?

Got new sketchbooks today ~<3
and a new set of pencils by my favorite brand X) Steadtler.
Oh crap, seems mom forgot her H pencils in the bag of my art supplies XD
I don't use mine much, but I can't part with them! They are part of my set and I can't seperate them.
LOL one of the reasons I bought an H and B pencil seperately. so that the ones in my set don't get too used up and dissapear on me, or become so tiny comared to the rest of my pencils in the set |D;;;;;

Old Set: 6B, 5B, 4B, 3B, 2B, B, HB, F, H, 2H, 3H, 4H
New Set: 8B, 7B, 6B, 5B, 4B, 3B, 2B, B, HB, F, H, 2H

I don't think I've ever used my 4H pencil before. and only used my 3H a few times? I used to use 2H and H. But these days I've started to use HB, B, and F most. 2B or 3B for darker lines and sometimes shading/filling-in
and since I use B pencils more, I figured getting this new set would be more useful to me.

New sketchbooks are only 30 sheets each, but they seem to be a nice size. 22.9 x 30.5 cm. Not that I'd prolly use it, but they also have perferations to pull them from the book without ripping it off the spiral. I used to need that, but after those years I mostly leave pages in my sketchbook.

Now that I have my new Mic... I don't know what to say |D;;;;

Also, there is someone on another of those social types of sites... they wanna friend me again after... yeah, we so were on bad terms for a while. I know the kind of person they are. And I so don't feel they've changed too much.
They blocked me from various things long time ago. Dunno if I wanna freind them or not. I have friends that used to be mutal friends where they sent me an friend invite thing to... who aren't really their freind anymore. I don't want to be used just for them to cause trouble with the people I'm still friends with. I know they would do it too.

I'm sick of unecessary and malicious net drama being cause by people like that.

There is a chance they may not do it. But I'm not very hopeful.
Me being used isn't what I mind so much as them attacking my friends.

I did sort of extend the olive branch though. Things weren't on horrid terms for a little time now. I'm still deeply suspicious though. They've wronged me many times in the past.

LAWL
on a totally different note~
I've suddenly gotten the urge to draw m0ar suggestive/marred pics of Rene... at various ages XD

I blame my bro. And his letting me read the volume of Pretty Face I bought him for Christmas XD;
Though I admit to having wanted to read that series for a long time already.
Yesh, I do like to admire the female figure. I really do. I find I can tend to go for loving a guys personality more than his body |D; My favorite things to admire about a guy: his eyes, mouth, hands, fingers, and maybe his hair.
With women... I dunno. I guess I like curves? I can go for small or larger boobs. But I don't really like them TOO big XD
OTL spending so much time with Kris, Ryan, and the rest of the guys... yeah. I end up seeing a lot of things. Hearing a lot of things. And thus talking about a lot of things.

Also, been thinkin' on Mich and Rene's past together a lot recently.
LOL I drew their first kiss early on. Way early on. Maybe the second or third image I drew of Rene? Before I was sure if Rene was her name. I think I had a dream where Mich told me that was her name |D;

oh yeah, 'nother character meme. LOL I know, some questions repeated:

1. Choose six of your own characters.
2. Make them answer the following questions.
3. Feel free to go ahead and add some questions yourself!!
4. Then tag a few people.

1. Wallace
2. Micheal
3. Jovan
4. Rene
5. Fredrick
6. Hoops

Who/What are you?

Wallace - I'm a Freelance miner and Pokémon Trainer
Micheal - Wandering Pokémon Trainer
Jovan - My name is Jovan, and I'm a Battle Researchist!
Rene - Name's Rene Baby~ And I fight in Pokémon Battle Tournaments X)
Fredrick - I am Fredrick from the Hoenn Region, and the co-ordinator Extrodinare~ But you can call me anything you like *winks*
Hoops - M-my names Hoops... I'm a Pokémon T-trainer... from Johto

Do you have any brothers or sisters?

Wallace - Well... yeah. Jovan
Micheal - No siblings
Jovan - ^_^ Apparently Wallace is my half-brother!
Rene - Mmm, nope. I'm an only child.
Fredrick - I have two lovely older sisters~!
Hoops - N-no... I don't have any.

What's your height?

Wallace - I'm about 5'11", why?
Micheal - 5'10"
Jovan - 5'7.5"!
Rene - 5'9" ;)
Fredrick - 6'2"~
Hoops - orz; I'm really short...

How old are you?

Wallace - 19
Micheal - 24
Jovan - 20
Rene - 24
Fredrick - ^_~ How old do you want me to be?
Hoops - 19...

Are you a virgin?

Wallace - What is wrong with you people?! That's personal >_>#
Micheal - no
Jovan - yes?
Rene - oh no ^.~
Fredrick - Well, I am experience if that's what you mean to ask~
Hoops - <_<;;;; y-yeah...

Who's your mate/spouse?

Wallace - =_=# *refusing to answer*
Micheal - ......
Jovan - Oh, I'm not married yet
Rene - Oh, I think we should get to know one another before getting into that~
Fredrick - [LOL plz don't make me respond for Fredrick here]
Hoops - I don't have anyone like that...

How do you feel about kids?

Wallace - I can deal with them. I don't want to be surrounded by them all the time, but I know how to look after them.
Micheal - ..... They're a lot of work.
Jovan - Oh they can be adorable! Well, as long as I can still get some work done ^^;
Rene - It's true they can be a bit of work, but they can be really sweet too~
Fredrick - I don't mind playing with them and teaching them about the world~
Hoops - I-I don't know... o.o;

What's your favorite food?

Wallace - I'll eat just about anything if it's very spicy
Micheal - something quick to make or prepare
Jovan - <3 I LOVE sweet food! But candy is my favorite.
Rene - Oh, I don't have too much of a preference. I like to try different kinds.
Fredrick - [orz; I haven't decided yet!]
Hoops - [|D; same for Hoops...]

Have you ever killed anyone?

Wallace - >_>; What the hell kind of question is that?
Micheal - ....
Jovan - O_O what, of course not!
Rene - I can't take the blame for what someone does after we break-up~ X)
Fredrick - heaven's no!
Hoops - T_T N-no! Why would I do that?!

Do you hate anyone?

Wallace - I used to think I did...
Micheal - It's too much effort
Jovan - No, I don't hate them... >_>;
Rene - it's a bit of a waste to hate someone.
Fredrick - Oh how could I hate someone? Revenge can be so much sweeter~
Hoops - I feel like I'm the one who's hated... orz

What do you do to relax?

Wallace - mining is relaxing. but cooking poffins or tending the berry plants is also soothing.
Micheal - Sleep. Or play some video games or the guitar *shrugs*
Jovan - Going for a swim is so much fun! Or changing my Pokémon team line-up~ everyone deserves a chance to come out and have fun with us!
Rene - Spending some quality time with that certain someone ^_~
Fredrick - [I don't know what to put here exactly]
Hoops - [LOL hoops, you are so neglected XD;]

There's a person who's teasing you; what would you do?

Wallace - =_=; Replying usually only eggs them on.
Micheal - Ignore them in most cases. If I'm up to it I can tease 'em back.
Jovan - I guess it depends what it's about?
Rene - Oh ho ho! You think you can win against me with words do ya?
Fredrick - Oh, I'm always up for a little fun ~<3
Hoops - T_T

Let's say there's a person you really care about but she/he doesn't know your feelings. How do you tell her/him?

Wallace - *cough*
Micheal - either I don't tell them, or just tell 'em up front.
Jovan - *figits* Well... that's tricky right? I mean, you need to say it or do it the right way don't you? Just be honest with them I think ^_^
Rene - Mmm, sometimes actions speak louder than words darlin' ^_~
Fredrick - Oh, there are so many ways to woo someone! Do you want the long or short list?
Hoops - o///o I-I don't know...!

What kind of powers do you have?

Wallace - The hell...? *gives you a funny look* What the hell do you mean?
Micheal - .....
Jovan - Well, it seems I can convince people to do things for me if I ask nice enough when I try?
Rene - Well, that's just something you'll have to find out isn't it? X)
Fredrick - I can make any girl mine. Just give me enough time~
Hoops - I don't have any...

Which do you choose- Duty, or Love?

Wallace - Finding a balance is the key I think v_v
Micheal - Hn...
Jovan - D: love is important, but duty is too... *is torn*
Rene - Oh, I can do almost anything for love~
Fredrick - Love is special! but it can also be fickle, you have to be careful, but accepting <3
Hoops - Love is hard, and it can be scary. I usually fall back on duty. But Fredrick is trying to help me...

Are you afraid of dying/leaving the world?

Wallace - I wasn't before... but I have things I still need to do and people I care about.
Micheal - No, I wouldn't say so. It's Wallace I worry about more often than not.
Jovan - D: yes, I guess I am a little scared.
Rene - well... not so much. I'd have regrets but I wouldn't say I'm afraid.
Fredrick - Oh! the world would stop turning without me in it! *presses the back of his hand against his forehead and feints a swoon*
Hoops - T___T yeah, it would be scary

Where do you see yourself in 5 years?

Wallace - Where do I see... myself? I'm not really sure. I just try take it a little at a time. Right now. But I'd be happy with a normal life. Not that it seems likely...
Micheal - I just live day-by-day
Jovan - I want to be a sucessful researcher! So that my findings are relevant and useful!
Rene - Oh that Mich X3 he's so reisistant I'll get him to come 'round.
Fredrick - [lololol I can't put anything seriously right now XD]
Hoops - [|D; Iunno...]

What are your biggest fears?

Wallace - >_> I'm not telling YOU.
Micheal - ........
Jovan - D: Being attacked by baby pokémon trying to feed me spicy food!
Rene - Oh you know I'm fearless baby! X)
Fredrick - [LOL dunno what to put XD]
Hoops - [yeah... here neither |D]

What would be your personal Profile name?

Wallace - Wouldn't that just be my own name?
Micheal - My first and last name
Jovan - I'd love to have something that sounds cool and maybe a little exotic?
Rene - Oh Sweetie, for where? You know I have a few~
Fredrick - [XD you can imagine]
Hoops - I think I'd just use my first name? right?

Found out there was a sale on Royale Bathroom tissue at Wal-mart today, convinced mom to buy some XD
we never usually buy it b/c it's expensive. usually end up with Purex b/c it's quality is pretty good for a pretty good price. We hat charmin though. it's too soft and feels like your using a cloth or something XD
Also... I've never had that 'leaving little white pieces behind' problem Charmin puts in their commercial >_>;
lol didn't find the commercial.... but I found this XD www.youtube.com/watch
And that just reminds me of how Dad would always say we shouldn't use more than three squares of bathroom tissue... maybe ever XD; for one trip to the toilet >.>;

I still can't get over that ppl think Mich and Rene go good together. Or like, they just seem as if they'd be very likely to end up together.
LOL I guess until I started writing up for Rene Mich did seem a little out of place compared to my other OC's?
I always felt he did |D;

LAWL and I certainly have a hard time getting over Nympho Jovan XD
Kiko-chan... you should see the comic-like thing Pidge scribbled up related to that XD
But thinking of Nympho Jovan makes me think MichJo is actually more hawt than before XD
|: since Mich seems to have a high/healthy libido [LOL especially if it's with Wallace. like what, is Wallace just a natural mass of phremones and everyone gets all desiring him so they wanna raep or something?]

And lately I think I'd been listening to music and relating it to Rene more often |D
Sadly/oddly enough I can't recall the other songs at this time that I was thinking about though >.>;

I still can't decide if I wanna buy AFI's December Underground Album, or Brit's Circus Album. LOL yes, I feel so pathetic for even considering that one *shot*

And I can't think of a name for my Ruby character XD; though I had considered Mich/Micheal. I dunno who to make his rival XD
In R/S is your rival your opposite gender? If it is I guess I could name her Rene then?
I've never played R/S, only Emerald. and it's been a LONG ass time since I've played Emerald XD

For some reason I wanted to draw an angry looking Mich biting down hard on his cig XD
Like... maybe with his one eyebrow down, the other... semi-arced? with the angry vein mark and his teeth bared more on one side of his mouth?

OTL and I can't figure what I wanna draw with my new tablet now that I've got it. I keep feeling the desire to use my pencils and sketch books....
Before Christmas I wanted/needed my tablet to do some scribbling with friends on iScribble, or quick scribbles of ideas talked over in IM's or whatever in oC... now that's all dried up |D;

I really think I should get some sleep now XD; it's like 2:30 am...

I miss everyone~! *hugs* latz

[ - You're Right There But... - ]

Fri, 26 Dec 2008 11:45:33 GMT

[ - ...It's Like You Never Knew Me - ]

song just happens to be playing as I start this entry.

Well, Christmas was alright. Wasn't awesomesauce, but it could've been worse XD

I did get surprises though. A rock polisher ~<3 love it.
and two gifts mom had me pick for Wallace... were actually for me XD;
Wait... make that three.
one was an over-sized towel [normal ones are always too small], the first DVD of Mushi-shi [a full can of kick ass awesomesauce if there ever was one. You SO need to watch it. The review I read was right about it being good IMO], er... I forget what the other was XD;
but yeah. I got my new tablet!

LAWL so weird switching from a Graphire4 to a Bamboo... I had to settle for a small sized one. I would've prefered Med but they only had Med's in Fun and I wanted just a Bamboo. Sadly they only had Black in Bamboo. The Blue was in the Small Fun >_>;
There was no way I was going to make mom pay so much extra just to buy me a medium size if it only came in Fun <_< No Way.

8D mom also got Wallace some Archery things! He's been wanting to get into it for a while now~

lulz she also got me some leg warmers and a pair of thigh high tights things... from that... new Ligere store? whatever. It's called Eila or something anyway. It's not like that sex toys store Ebony's though.
LOL I remember shopping there for Kay-kun and Ginny though XD
I bought some strawberry flavored condoms and lube for Kay-kun [hell yeah I mailed them to her XD And that was back when we were really good friends still]. And Edible tatto's for Ginny [more recently, maybe last year?]. They weren't old enough back then to get in XD actually... I don't know if Kay-kun is old enough yet XD; I know Ginny is in College now though, but she'd be about... what... 18?
Can't remember how old you need to be to get into Ebony's.

I know Kay-kun liked her gifts XD she was sucking on the condoms right away I think she said. And she tried the starwberry gel, and said it made her tongue numb or something?
LAWL I told her it was lube and she was al, "?!? What? it's lube too??? o.o!"
XD!

I wasn't able to send Pidge's gift yet |D;
Not sure when I'll be able to. likely in January when things calm down a little XD;

Oh yeah, I got mom to get Left 4 Dead for Wallace <3 he as over at Jose's playing it on his big monitor screen. It was awesomesauce ~<3
lulz and mom asked me, "Want some fruit salad to snack on while you watch the blood and gore?" XD; she knows how watching zombies and them getting blown to bits makes me supremely hungry |D;
Even when I would do disections in science classes I'd get really hungry. I remember working with one of my four lab partners in Bio in college, we were holding the fetal calf carcase we'd just sliced open over the sink to drain a lot of the blood... and we both commented about how hungry we were and couldn't wait for lunch xD
our other two partners were standing as far way from us as they could while still being within viewing distance |D

I also got a PSP! and two games. Naruto Ultimate Heroes 2 and FF II!
LAWL I named my party: Walt [Wallace wouldn't fit, the most I could get in was up until the second "l" D<], Jovan, Steve, and Mich XD
I'd love to talk LOADS about it... but I won't. Just some?

But it was funny, after Walt woke-up from his unconciousness... he looked around and called out for Mich after asking where he was XD; [then Jovan, then Steve].

Yeah... according to the storyline Mich is Jovan's brother, not Jovan being Walt's Sis XD
And if I remember right, Mich and Walt should be best friends. At least that makes sense.
Only thing is, Mich is seperated from the party... so it's like Mich leaving instead of Wallace for WD XD
I don't think the character I named Jovan is much like Jo... and maybe naming that guy Walt is better than Wallace personality wise anyway. I think the one I named Mich may fit a Wallace [older] better.
LOL I don't remember too much about the guy I named Steve XD; it's been SO long since I played FFII. Never did get to beat the entire game b/c it dissapeared on Wallace before I could >_>!
[LAWL and Mich ends up being kinda evil once you meet him again. Well, not really? He's just 'working for the enemy' or something if I remember right.]

The first FF on the NES is still my fav. I do like FFII a lot though. never played III and IV and V. I can't remember if I've tried VI. I used to like VII, but I'm so sick and tired of it. I guess VIII is my favorite of the newer generations? I didn't like IX much. and I HATE X and X-2. Never tried XI or XII. is XIII out?
I liked FF Crystal Chronicles on the GC <3
LOL I still have comics about playing that with the guys I need to draw XD
I actually got FFCC on the DS.... but didn't enjoy it. so I traded it to Ryan for his Emerald that I pretty much already permenantly borrowed anyway XD;

o_o which reminds me... I still haven't even turned on Ruby yet |D; it's due back on Tuesday...

I also loved FF Tactics~
I have it on the PSone. Wallace has it on his PSP... there are differences (just like for II for the PSP). But I've never tired it yet.
LAWL I so wanna see that comic he said he saw about FF Tactics and the chemist throwing the potion to the main character XD

<3 I was so loving playing Street Fighter Alpha 3 on my new PSP though. Don't own the game, borrowing it from Wallace.
My fav is Ryu XD has been since forever. I liked to use Ken too. Wallace's character is Sakura X3 I like to use Karen 8D; I think he said he's tried using her too?
Chun-Li used to be my signature back in the NES days vs Ryan XD it's Ryu these days.

I miss playing Killer Instinct...

LAWL
chattin' randomly with XIII on MSN today.

and...
oh man...
^^; he seems to wanna date me...
again |D;
No, we've never dated ever. But he's talked of it before. I did tell him before I don't wanna get into a relationship with him. LOL he's 6.5 years younger than me XD
but I have known him for a few years now. He has at least matured since then XD
But yeah, don't think I'd date him. Not now anyway. Never know about the future.

LOL and yeah, I already have like four girlfriends, a wife, and a husband *headdesk*
wtf? I though I prefered guys more and I have four girlfriends and no boyfriends?

LAWL those are internet relationships btw XD not like... uber serious kind though.

I have had two serious net relationships in the past, and a few not so serious ones XD

None IRL though. And never been kissed either XP
LAWL I've never even been on a date xD

Well, Wallace has kissed me before. But that's like years ago when we were less than 10 years old. And it was utterly platonic. I mean, yesh, he's my brother!

LOL
Mom gave me some old pics. I wanna show Kiko-chan still, but sent 'em to Pidge. I don't really wanna host them anywhere |D;
but yeah, the one of me lying on a blanket with baby Wallace, when I was looking at it she said, "Yeah, brother was always stuck to your hip. That's just the way it's always been."

lololol
neither of us can go anywhere without someone asking where the other is XD;

*sighs* I can't remember what else I was gonna say |D;

Ah well. It's boxing day, I should get some sleep. Mom and I are suppose to go shopping uptown today. She said she's gonna buy me a couple more games for my PSP XD

Oh yeah! I didn't get any skins for my PSP, but Wallace let me use the back of his new skins [he'd bought one before and was using the back of that for his, but he wrecked the front for it so he's using his new one on there I guess, so he gave me the back that he wouldn't be using for mine XD; if you can make sense of that].

Ginny should be coming back in a few days. About when I got back from PG she'd sent me a note saying she'd be back in about a week ~<3

ttyl everyone, hope the rest of your holiday's/break go well.

[ - ........ - ]

Mon, 22 Dec 2008 10:16:14 GMT

|D; finally able to update and browsed friend entries.

D: why doesn't it tell me when I get a reply from the original poster of the journal? I had to go back and check the entries by Pidge and Lyruii myself then re-reply to their replies XD;

oh well, whatever.

I was thinking recently though...

similarities between Mich and my uncle Marvin?
both smoke, pretty much all the time. They have the same lax personality. Never get much of a reaction out of them. Though my uncle did joke and laugh. But it wasn't really a huge deal? LOL Iunno. you could tell, but he was a quiet guy. Also, he could play the electric like nobodies business ~<3 heavy metal was his fave genre of music I think XD though he'd go for any 'good' new music and rock or whatever. He just seemed to favor loud music most often.
LOL if I remember right he always wore a bandana. and he had this KICK ASS black leather jacket. You know, with those long frindges? I dunno if I can find a pic of it sometime or not. Though that's not really a similarity.
Neither is his near constant wearage of sunglasses.
He always wore a pouch though. a black leather one XD
he seemed to like black leather...
Pretty sure he favored jeans though. never much paid attention to his shirts. guess they were t-shirts though.
and all his clothes looked uber old XD;
He was also one of THE BEST gamers I've ever known |D; holy sheet man.

lol but a lot of ppl I know/knew smoke.
Kris, Jose (mom's bf), Lyle...? I think he did (mom's ex), Dave (mom's other ex), Dan ('nother ex XD), I think all the bf's mom's had that I remember smoked XD;;;; bunch of my other friends. Andrew (cousin) he smokes too.
Ppl I know that don't smoke? Hoops, Josie (not that I remember), Amy? don't think she does. Wallace doesn't. Don't think Ryan does. or Brad. Eh, but yeah, lot of ppl I knew in school smoked. so I usually had to hang out in the smoking pit with them. or just walk with them outside as they smoked.

I used to really despise it. but I guess I got more accustomed to it over the years. I actually don't mind AS much. it dosen't usually bother me too much. I find the smell of cig smoke on a person sort of calming now |D;

though, I usually assosicate cig smoke on 'adults' with the smell of alcohol as well. and thus the bar or having been drinking or being drunk.
so I guess i'm still wary of it. Just smoke is alright for me I guess. but I DETEST the smell of alcohol.

reminds me of dad... and auntie(s).
I can't actually remember what dad smells like without alcohol though o_o
I remember he stopped drinking for a bit... but then started again after grandpa's urn burial... I'd been hoping he could've quit. Auntie Bev got back into her partying as well </3

*sighs*

now I forgot what I was going to talk about... OTL

oh well, I'll just re-post my dream that I IMed to Pidge here. it's about Mich, Wallace... and myself? It was me, but didn't really feel like it XD

well, I'm not sure exactly what was going on.
but... Mich saved me from something |D;
but he got hurt D:
so yeah, Wallace was pissed off. Mich wasn't there atm... so he like... hit me or hurt me somehow XD; telling me how he was so pissed off about Mich getting hurt while he was saving my worhtless hide XD;

then Mich comes along (still injured) telling Wallace that I'm the one they've been looking for...?

they were like... hired or something to find and bring someone to someone else or something XD;

Wallace seemed surprised, and just turned back to look at me. he frowned and didn't say anything else.
He just let Mich pick me up so they could bring me to wherever it was I needed to be brough |D;

I vaugely remember traveling with Mich and Wallace. Mich carrying me most of the time because I can't seem to walk on my own. I'm injured, but also seem to have no motivation or anything whatsoever. I never talk to either of them, and Wallace will usually glare at me and what-not, but only talks to Mich. Mich doesn't seem to talk to me either, but doesn't seem to say much to Wallace either.

so yeah, they drop me off or whatever.

I think... they leave?

but for some reason Wallace goes back? I guess they weren't paid or the end of the deal/bargin with the people they were hired by wasn't met, so he was going to try get it straightened out.

he happens to see me restrained. I'm sorta standing, but my arms are restrained by my wrists and hands are held over my head (seperately).

And I guess I have wings XD; like feathered ones.
they are also being held out somehow so that they are extended.
I look over to Wallace briefly before just looking away. I seem to look more sad than anything, but still rather expressionless.

He seems to be wondering what's going on. He might've actually asked what the hell they were doing.

Not sure how they did it, but somehow they chop off my wings, leaving just little stumps from out of my back.
seems it hurt a lot, I wince in pain, but don't really make any sound, and just let myself slump down in my restriants.

Wallace doesn't seem to like that.

it seems they mostly just wanted my wings? I don't know why.

so they comment about how they aren't sure what to do with the 'rest of me'. And say how they'll just chop me up for meat or something.

Wallace gets rather animated at this comment. Asking, "Wh-what?! You mean while she's still alive?!?"

They take me down, looking at him with an quizical expression, "Yes. Why does it matter? The rest of her is pretty useless as is."

I can already imagine them just chopping my body apart. And I guess thinking about it makes an expression on my face that I don't notice, but Wallace seems to see.

He seems to be regretting having brought me here.
He comes over and grabs me, putting his arms around me and holding me against him (since I still can't seem to support myself).
He seems to be trying to tell them he wants to take me. Negotiate with them? Telling them they find me useless anyway. So he'll either take me, or just pay them for me or whatever they want.

I think I actually ask him, "Why? Why bother?" while thinking about how he didn't care before, why he suddenly seems to now.
I can feel his body tense up and he just holds me tigher and doesn't reply.

and then I woke up XD

after a while other stuph started coming back to me, not much though:

It seems Wallace was able to 'negotiate' a deal with them. He was still holding me when Mich seemed to come along... it looked like he was stepping out of something. I dunno, wasn't paying too much attention. I was starting to lose conciousness... from the pain of having lost my wings?

I think he asked Wallace what he was doing with me still.

And I think Wallace asked him right out, if he knew that's what they wanted me for, or what they were going to do to me.
Mich looked a tad taken aback and blinked? either that or he just kept his stoic expression, but some sort of emotion flashed in his eyes that made me think I saw some change in his expression.

Mich replied with something about how yeah, he knew, or he had an idea of what they were going to do
"But that's what we were paid for. And we need the money. So what's the deal? You never had any issues with treatment to her before. You don't even like her."

I don't know what Wallace replied with for sure.

I remember later we were sitting around a camp fire someplace. I think Mich was off getting food or water or wood or whatever. He seems to leave me with Wallace a lot after Wallace negotiated to take me.
Though Wallace doesn't seem to really... talk to me or anything. He does carefully watch me from a slight distance, but I can't read anything into him. Mich mostly seems to ignore me altogether.

And since it's been a while I'm getting more and more depressed.

Life has no meaning. Why is Wallace dragging me around with him? It makes no sense. I'm not doing anything for him, he doesn't seem to want anything from me. I'm just existing.

So I seem to ask him, why did he bother? Why doesn't he just kill me himself? Is that what he'd wanted to do? He bargined for me just so he could kill me himself? He seems the type to hold a grudge. Is he just torturing me without actually physically harming me?

Wallace doesn't seem to like what I have to say.

I can't quite remember what he says, but he's crouching/kneeling/whatever in front of me, with his hands gripping my shoulders, frowning as he talks to me, with his raised voice, slightly shaking me, saying something or asking me something.

I'm not really paying attention. I just seem to tune him out. I ignore everything. I don't sleep half the time. I just lie there in my blankets or sleeping bag or whatever around the burned out fire with Mich and Wallace most of the time. Sometimes drifiting into short sleep. Wake up, slowly pull my meager things together and keep trudging along with them.

I stop eating altogether. Wallace or Mich hand me food. I either let it sit there, or take it but do nothing with it but hold the plate or whatever and stare blankly forward at nothing.

Mich doens't seem concerned.
Wallace does.

he seems to be trying to tell me I have to eat. The threatening tone doesn't affect me at all. Nor do his comments about the wasting of the food by not eating it.

Sure, he's angry at first. But after a few more uneaten meals his concern seems to show through a bit more.
He's tried feeding me the food. But I don't open my mouth for it at all or anything.

He's getting frustrated.

Mich's been watching Wallace attempts for the past few days.
So now he decides to take action upon seeing Wallaces utter frustration. [which seems to depress him more than anything, Wallace is the one getting depressed]

Mich sights, pushes himself up and makes his way over to Wallace and I, "Look, I'll show you how you do it."

He grabs some food, pops it into his mouth, seems to chew it or whatever a bit, then grabs my face between his hands and presses his mouth against mine. He's able to get my lips to part, and I let the food in his mouth move to my own. He convinces me to swallow.

"Like that, Wallace." he's still got his hands on my face, but has turned his face to Wallace

Wallace seemed to have been watching wtih nervous fascination. Mich lets his hands drop from my face as he straightens up and starts to walk back to his spot around the fire on the opposite side.

Can't quite remember what happened after that. But some time later (next day?), Wallace hesitantly tries Mich's method.
It seems to work well enough. He feeds me a bit before he seems to embarrased and just seems to leave me and sort of try avoid me as much as he can.

anything after that is too fuzzy or cut into snippets for me to be able to type in a comprehensive manner XD; I'll try figure it out so I can tell you more if you want it later. or if I remember to put it in LJ again |D;

lawl whut's up with this?
I try draw WalJo and end up drawing MichWal... try draw MichWal and end up with WalJo XD;

it's about 2:15 am, I better get some sleep. I have phone calls to make tomorrow =_=;

[ - sigh - ]

Sat, 13 Dec 2008 01:19:11 GMT

I get tired so easily lately. but I also get odd periods of feeling energetic. Sometimes so much so that I don't know what I can do with myself.

Most often I'm supremely tired though.

Either that or I just feel lazy?

|D; I guess with Mich being my... muse of sorts doesn't help that too much? I think I tend to take on bits of the personality or such of my muse when I have one. Wallace was my muse for a while. It seems to be Mich at the moment.

And I usually have bad dreams involving Mich. It makes me sad. Well, my dreams about Wallace tend to be sad/nightmares as well. Though with Mich it tends to be more to him? For Wallace it's usually things relating to him that are bad, and not directly to him as often as they are with Mich. So Mich tends to get physically hurt whereas with Wallace it's more psycological.

That fan fic I'm reading that I put in my dA Jouranl... I do like it a lot. but after getting into the first few chapters... it's starting to annoy me about the resemblence to Twilight. Temari is suddenly a total klutz when she wasn't at the start of the book. and she hates the 'greeness' or 'dampness' of Konoha...
It really gets on my nerves, and I can't enjoy it as much as I would love to. Maybe it would have been better if I hadn't tried to read Twilight at all. It's totally ruined books/romance/vampires for me in all shapes and forms. I was hardly able to enjoy 'salem's Lot at all. And I usually love Stephen King books. I heard that particular one was suppose to be very scary... it wasn't. Not to me anyway. I found 1408 scarier than that. I think the one that I found most scary so far was the Dark-Half? Carrie was very interesting. and I really liked Dreamcatcher. I wasn't able to read that other one... too bad it seemed to be something about a dragon and medievil times as well.. *sighs* I read the blurb on the back and I just didn't think I could read the book. sadly. Oh, I also loved the first book of the Dark Tower Series. Never read anything beyond the Gunslinger though... it felt like it was getting to be too popular XD; and there is no way I can go about reading the comics I somewhat recently found out were being released.

I discovered the only comics I can stomach reading tend to be about Spiderman. American comics anyway.

Tried reading others. I just can't enjoy it as much, or whatever.

I miss Kris... a lot.

but I find I feel awkward around him recently. not 100% sure why. I have a few ideas... but I'm either in denial or I just don't get it XD

But yeah, pretty sure we won't be going back to the village this Christmas. No where to stay, and granny seems like she's really trying to silently disown us. And make it out to be our own decision so that she doesn't lose face.

I hate that. more than I can put into words. One of the biggest reasons I can not stand being around her.

I just feel so depressed.

Not like I wanna kill myself depressed.

Just...

depressed.

Like I don't want to even bother with ANYTHING anymore... at all.

That kind of depressed?

Also sad I guess.

And I think I rubbed my eye the wrong way. I brused it or rub burned the corner or something.

It hurts.

and I'm so fucking tired.
and my fingers are all fucked up. typing is worse than usual. drawing is fucked up. trying to be online is not working at all...

I dunno. it's like I get severe highs, then horrible crashes. I don't do drugs... so what the fuck?

Eating on Thrusday... yesterday.

Could barely taste the food.

Well, I could like... taste it. but not the way I usually taste things? if that makes any sense. I didn't seem to enjoy it kind of taste it. I just just taste that there was food in my mouth?
Not that I didn't not feel hungry. but I didnt' feel really hungry like I wanted to eat. Just hungry enough (and tired enough) to know that my body needed the damned food.

I ordered a lot. But I didn't get the same reaction I usually do.
Not about while I was eating. About feeling too full, not full enough. just... nothing.

Shit... I'm suppose to walk the dog today.

I had energy hours ago. not anymore. I just feel... sorta angry and depressed |D;

*sighs* oh well. I better go eat something else or get something to drink at least.